[ ah yes it's his turn to internally panic because aaaaAH fuck this was a mistake. leo said "shameless" and now leo's the other one on the end of a shameless emotional dump sundae and he's not sure what to say. because there's always been an appreciation and an implicit gratitude that everything and everyone he adored accepted him back as they did even after he failed them; an appreciation and an implicit gratitude that tsukasa's somewhat accepted him despite his eccentricities and the sudden way he arrived, that suou tried in his own way to hold knights up.
... except tsukasa's just saying everything out loud now, and it's so much easier for leo to shower that affection than to receive it so directly. this is it, the wildcard spoiled brat he came back to, who he sometimes can predict and at other times can't predict at all. and it's not a bad thing, not at all; it's wonderful, and beautiful, and leo really loves watching tsukasa grow and live more and more, but.
that warmth in his chest that's usually so empowering and a source of pride is also getting a little suffocating, too? ah, god—
tsukasa'll definitely get when leo lifts himself up, completely taking his weight off as he ceases to lean. ]
Hahaha. [ the laugh isn't loud, isn't a cackle. he almost feels shy, which is hilarious. tsukasa is saying he feels outclassed, and yet for a moment leo feels the same way. this brat— ] If you make double-edged lyrics like that, they might not reach everyone.
[ he stops.
but, well.
hm.
those words definitely reached him. ]
... Hearing all that, though... "It doesn't matter" was the wrong thing to put near those thoughts, yep. [ ... ] Don't worry, Suo~. We'll definitely all walk together.
[ words, words, words. he mumbles that to himself, sorting through his mind as he attempts to put himself together, as everything ebbs and flows.
a pause, and he continues, swaying slightly: ]
I want to say thank you, but "thank you" feels like kinda the wrong words to say. Too weak, too... [ he needs something grander. which is what music is for. ] ... Sometimes I wonder what I did to deserve Knights like you. You've definitely grown... you're definitely growing...! And if this place is where that's happening, then I want you to stay at my pig-headed, infuriating side as long as possible.
[ even if he doesn't deserve it. selfish, maybe it's selfish—but this is what he has, and he's going to do everything in his power to make sure it's never given up again, that everyone under his care shines to their full potential. that they don't come short, and then flee.
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... except tsukasa's just saying everything out loud now, and it's so much easier for leo to shower that affection than to receive it so directly. this is it, the wildcard spoiled brat he came back to, who he sometimes can predict and at other times can't predict at all. and it's not a bad thing, not at all; it's wonderful, and beautiful, and leo really loves watching tsukasa grow and live more and more, but.
that warmth in his chest that's usually so empowering and a source of pride is also getting a little suffocating, too? ah, god—
tsukasa'll definitely get when leo lifts himself up, completely taking his weight off as he ceases to lean. ]
Hahaha. [ the laugh isn't loud, isn't a cackle. he almost feels shy, which is hilarious. tsukasa is saying he feels outclassed, and yet for a moment leo feels the same way. this brat— ] If you make double-edged lyrics like that, they might not reach everyone.
[ he stops.
but, well.
hm.
those words definitely reached him. ]
... Hearing all that, though... "It doesn't matter" was the wrong thing to put near those thoughts, yep. [ ... ] Don't worry, Suo~. We'll definitely all walk together.
[ words, words, words. he mumbles that to himself, sorting through his mind as he attempts to put himself together, as everything ebbs and flows.
a pause, and he continues, swaying slightly: ]
I want to say thank you, but "thank you" feels like kinda the wrong words to say. Too weak, too... [ he needs something grander. which is what music is for. ] ... Sometimes I wonder what I did to deserve Knights like you. You've definitely grown... you're definitely growing...! And if this place is where that's happening, then I want you to stay at my pig-headed, infuriating side as long as possible.
[ even if he doesn't deserve it. selfish, maybe it's selfish—but this is what he has, and he's going to do everything in his power to make sure it's never given up again, that everyone under his care shines to their full potential. that they don't come short, and then flee.
he really does love suou. ]