The words manage to get him to flinch and - he knows that's wrong. He knows that's wrong, but for a solid second, the words felt painful. Even though they're the words that he craves to hear from Leo, the ones that he wants to keep to himself - that he thinks he wouldn't mind hearing over and over because it reminds him that somehow in this weird, ridiculous, unbelievably infinite world, Suou Tsukasa somehow managed to get this insane genius to love him.
how had he managed that?
but there's denying that Tsukasa feels the same - it's a feeling that he's never experienced before, the kind of love that encompasses him, sometimes blinds him, but perpetually hums in the back of his mind. it was on his list of absolute truths: he must serve the Suou family. he must do his best for Knights. he loves Leo.
even when it hurts to do so.
yet it's the one thing that he wants to hold onto now - Leo is the one thing he wants to hold onto now - and he tries. he does. perhaps for a moment he can selfishly run away from his problems and fixate on this. this warm, fleeting, irreplaceable part of his life.]
I might have to go.
[but it is another tenant of the Suou clan to be honest and forthright, isn't it?
he doesn't lift his head from Leo's shoulder, too afraid of what he might see in his beloved leader's eyes]
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The words manage to get him to flinch and - he knows that's wrong. He knows that's wrong, but for a solid second, the words felt painful. Even though they're the words that he craves to hear from Leo, the ones that he wants to keep to himself - that he thinks he wouldn't mind hearing over and over because it reminds him that somehow in this weird, ridiculous, unbelievably infinite world, Suou Tsukasa somehow managed to get this insane genius to love him.
how had he managed that?
but there's denying that Tsukasa feels the same - it's a feeling that he's never experienced before, the kind of love that encompasses him, sometimes blinds him, but perpetually hums in the back of his mind. it was on his list of absolute truths: he must serve the Suou family. he must do his best for Knights. he loves Leo.
even when it hurts to do so.
yet it's the one thing that he wants to hold onto now - Leo is the one thing he wants to hold onto now - and he tries. he does. perhaps for a moment he can selfishly run away from his problems and fixate on this. this warm, fleeting, irreplaceable part of his life.]
I might have to go.
[but it is another tenant of the Suou clan to be honest and forthright, isn't it?
he doesn't lift his head from Leo's shoulder, too afraid of what he might see in his beloved leader's eyes]