Tsukasa almost wishes that he hadn't gotten one. because with the apology, one that he knows is sincere because Leo never bothers to apologize for something he doesn't care about, he already feels the flash of anger starting to leave him. no, he's not leaving Knights... not in the way that Leo did.
but
that doesn't mean that he still gets to stay by Leo's side - it doesn't mean that he gets to stay a Knight. there's a moment of hesitation because... well, had it been a lie? no... he'd said that if he had the choice, he would stay with Knights and he would but the problem here is that
he doesn't know if he possesses that choice. not when he's otherwise trusted his parents with all the parts of his life. so there's a moment where he doesn't know what to do, where he's suspended a little bit in his confusion, like he's trying to figure out what to feel but.... well, the sadness sinks in again before he has much of a say in the matter.]
I don't... I don't want to go.
[and the words sting his pride, his brow furrows and he hopes that he doesn't look as young and lost as he feels (but he does, of course he does]
And I've already tried what I could - whatever I can do, because I don't want to be idle when it comes to something like this? I have been trying, you know, but...
[but. Leo doesn't even know what he's talking about, does he? it takes Tsukasa a second to calm himself, to keep his words from falling out in a torrent, in a rush of thought like Leo is often more wont to do]
But if my parents wish to move to America.... what am I supposed to do, Leader?
[Tsukasa has always been mature for his age - he knows that it's stupid, to think that he should want to derail his family's plans for relocation for... for what? A boy? Love? The family that he had found in Knights and the other type of love he had discovered among them?
but that's the thing with being young - and now, more than ever, did he feel young - everything sort of feels like the end of the world]
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Tsukasa almost wishes that he hadn't gotten one. because with the apology, one that he knows is sincere because Leo never bothers to apologize for something he doesn't care about, he already feels the flash of anger starting to leave him. no, he's not leaving Knights... not in the way that Leo did.
but
that doesn't mean that he still gets to stay by Leo's side - it doesn't mean that he gets to stay a Knight. there's a moment of hesitation because... well, had it been a lie? no... he'd said that if he had the choice, he would stay with Knights and he would but the problem here is that
he doesn't know if he possesses that choice. not when he's otherwise trusted his parents with all the parts of his life. so there's a moment where he doesn't know what to do, where he's suspended a little bit in his confusion, like he's trying to figure out what to feel but.... well, the sadness sinks in again before he has much of a say in the matter.]
I don't... I don't want to go.
[and the words sting his pride, his brow furrows and he hopes that he doesn't look as young and lost as he feels (but he does, of course he does]
And I've already tried what I could - whatever I can do, because I don't want to be idle when it comes to something like this? I have been trying, you know, but...
[but. Leo doesn't even know what he's talking about, does he? it takes Tsukasa a second to calm himself, to keep his words from falling out in a torrent, in a rush of thought like Leo is often more wont to do]
But if my parents wish to move to America.... what am I supposed to do, Leader?
[Tsukasa has always been mature for his age - he knows that it's stupid, to think that he should want to derail his family's plans for relocation for... for what? A boy? Love? The family that he had found in Knights and the other type of love he had discovered among them?
but that's the thing with being young - and now, more than ever, did he feel young - everything sort of feels like the end of the world]