after all they'd talked about, about avoiding situations where this would be a possibility, after all that leo swore that he wouldn't pick up and run off— well, that might be happening anyway? circumstances where suou would have to miss him, miss them all, where everything was kind of split apart with no fault of their own.
that was life, right...?
his thumb dusts absently, back and forth gently, at tsukasa's knuckles. his heart thumps in his ears in a way it hasn't really done, not in a while — but he continues to force himself level regardless.
except he can't. his chest is tight, and the selfish, reckless words he wants to say are spilling from his mouth so easily, because if this is what happens then isn't "honest" what he should be? ]
I know. [ just the thought is enough. ] Hey. I'd miss you too, you know? You're just talking about it, and a part of me is kinda missing you already...?
[ maybe that's silly. but he gets it—the hesitation tsukasa feels, the emotions choking him up.
leo doesn't think that the spark in his chest'd die just because the source of it went far away. he just kind of felt like he found something he wasn't even aware he was waiting for. then again, having found something like that... wouldn't it make more sense to disregard everything else and fight for it?
yet he knows tsukasa — knows his sense of loyalty and responsibility runs deeper than anyone else.
he pauses. it's not hesitation that stops him, but— consideration. organization. wondering what should be said when, but in the end decides to just let everything go, to say what comes when it comes. ]
But it's not like I'd leave or anything if... if you have to go. Don't think just because you're not here physically it's the end of everything here, yeah? I'm the King, so I can definitely say that no matter what — you're always a part of Knights. And me, you know I'm definitely too stubborn to let go of someone who makes my heart beat like this.
[ he's learned.
he came back and grasped what he left and he's never letting go again. even a long, long distance wouldn't stop that; he wouldn't let it.
if tsukasa would let him, it's selfish, but he'd even fight too. ]
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after all they'd talked about, about avoiding situations where this would be a possibility, after all that leo swore that he wouldn't pick up and run off— well, that might be happening anyway? circumstances where suou would have to miss him, miss them all, where everything was kind of split apart with no fault of their own.
that was life, right...?
his thumb dusts absently, back and forth gently, at tsukasa's knuckles. his heart thumps in his ears in a way it hasn't really done, not in a while — but he continues to force himself level regardless.
except he can't. his chest is tight, and the selfish, reckless words he wants to say are spilling from his mouth so easily, because if this is what happens then isn't "honest" what he should be? ]
I know. [ just the thought is enough. ] Hey. I'd miss you too, you know? You're just talking about it, and a part of me is kinda missing you already...?
[ maybe that's silly. but he gets it—the hesitation tsukasa feels, the emotions choking him up.
leo doesn't think that the spark in his chest'd die just because the source of it went far away. he just kind of felt like he found something he wasn't even aware he was waiting for. then again, having found something like that... wouldn't it make more sense to disregard everything else and fight for it?
yet he knows tsukasa — knows his sense of loyalty and responsibility runs deeper than anyone else.
he pauses. it's not hesitation that stops him, but— consideration. organization. wondering what should be said when, but in the end decides to just let everything go, to say what comes when it comes. ]
But it's not like I'd leave or anything if... if you have to go. Don't think just because you're not here physically it's the end of everything here, yeah? I'm the King, so I can definitely say that no matter what — you're always a part of Knights. And me, you know I'm definitely too stubborn to let go of someone who makes my heart beat like this.
[ he's learned.
he came back and grasped what he left and he's never letting go again. even a long, long distance wouldn't stop that; he wouldn't let it.
if tsukasa would let him, it's selfish, but he'd even fight too. ]