when itsuki holds onto his face, he goes with the pull easily. but there is a glimpse of something that he's too slow to hide - doesn't think to, at first. a quiet type of resignation. not of losing itsuki in particular, but in knowing that the human life is fleeting and can slip through your fingers at any point. the level of comfort that buzen has with death perhaps not unique to swords, but it permeates the core of his being a little more.
since his first mission when death was all around, and all he could do was accept it. because that's history.]
.... it's really not that simple.
[but he doesn't think itsuki will understand until he's standing at the edge of a massacre, shouldering the full weight of what they do. how could buzen expect him to accept it when he's only known peace? he wishes that he could talk itsuki out of it - know the right words to say to dissuade him from it.
but he supposes it's just one more way that he can't protect someone.
he leans in to press his mouth against itsuki's before pulling away gently. he squeezes his hand once and keeps their fingers intertwined as he moves to rise.]
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when itsuki holds onto his face, he goes with the pull easily. but there is a glimpse of something that he's too slow to hide - doesn't think to, at first. a quiet type of resignation. not of losing itsuki in particular, but in knowing that the human life is fleeting and can slip through your fingers at any point. the level of comfort that buzen has with death perhaps not unique to swords, but it permeates the core of his being a little more.
since his first mission when death was all around, and all he could do was accept it. because that's history.]
.... it's really not that simple.
[but he doesn't think itsuki will understand until he's standing at the edge of a massacre, shouldering the full weight of what they do. how could buzen expect him to accept it when he's only known peace? he wishes that he could talk itsuki out of it - know the right words to say to dissuade him from it.
but he supposes it's just one more way that he can't protect someone.
he leans in to press his mouth against itsuki's before pulling away gently. he squeezes his hand once and keeps their fingers intertwined as he moves to rise.]
Let's go.