rationally, he knows what Buzen means. it's the kind of sentiment that Itsuki's thought of before, like when Buzen told him he wanted to save Roxana -- and Itsuki's first resentful thought was that he wished Buzen didn't care so much about her. so really, he's in no position to feel as shocked as he does now, especially when buzen's not being cruel. he knows what buzen means, really. when buzen says 'i almost wish you'd care about me less' it's because he's thinking of itsuki, not because he wants to run from him.
but it doesn't stop the sudden pulse of fear that runs through him, at the idea that buzen might not want him to care as much as he already does. that the intensity of itsuki's emotions have created this singular conflict between them,
he already regrets it -- a little. for asking. he hates seeing that expression on buzen's face. he sets the glove down, cradles Buzen's hand in between both of his, silent as he searches for a reply that's not a 'i won't']
...What if you showed me tonight? If it's in a dream... then you won't have to worry about my safety.
[if it's a dream, then buzen won't have to worry about losing him, right?]
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rationally, he knows what Buzen means. it's the kind of sentiment that Itsuki's thought of before, like when Buzen told him he wanted to save Roxana -- and Itsuki's first resentful thought was that he wished Buzen didn't care so much about her. so really, he's in no position to feel as shocked as he does now, especially when buzen's not being cruel. he knows what buzen means, really. when buzen says 'i almost wish you'd care about me less' it's because he's thinking of itsuki, not because he wants to run from him.
but it doesn't stop the sudden pulse of fear that runs through him, at the idea that buzen might not want him to care as much as he already does. that the intensity of itsuki's emotions have created this singular conflict between them,
he already regrets it -- a little. for asking. he hates seeing that expression on buzen's face. he sets the glove down, cradles Buzen's hand in between both of his, silent as he searches for a reply that's not a 'i won't']
...What if you showed me tonight? If it's in a dream... then you won't have to worry about my safety.
[if it's a dream, then buzen won't have to worry about losing him, right?]