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Buzen "#boyfriendgijinka" Gou【豊前江】 ([personal profile] hasteful) wrote in [community profile] sugarcube 2022-04-18 06:51 am (UTC)

[ - he is so tense. itsuki will feel that even worse in the hand that is holding onto his sword, grip tight like he's still ready to fight. it's only when the sound of the battle around them begins to dim that buzen lets himself disconnect from it ever so slightly.

itsuki can't die here, because he controls all of this. all the blood will turn to flowers, and he can't get hurt. buzen reminds himself of that as he meets itsuki's gaze but -

the words don't settle for him. not here. if anything they confuse and tear at him worse.]


... that can't be true during missions, Suki. I can't always hold you. Even right now - if this were Shimabara... and I stayed here with you, Matsu would be broken. I need to save him.

[itsuki can be selfish. buzen lets him, encourages him. he wants to give itsuki everything that he wants.

but even buzen has a limit.]


... don't make me choose between my mission or you -

Please.

[because buzen already knows how that would end - and that is a nightmare that he doesn't think he'd ever quite wake up from.]

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