[their eyes meet, and itsuki keeps his gaze on him. as much as he's a coward and likes to run --
he's stopped wanting to -- ever since he met buzen. so he takes buzen's honesty and folds it into his heart, the knowledge that buzen was hurt and that he doesn't blame him,
he never wants to forget again. he leans into the hand, closing his eyes, his voice rough]
I... [...a little helplessly,] I'm sorry.
For what I did -- and for feeling guilty... [because he knows that will make buzen sad too,] I'm sorry for always trying to get my own way. ...And I'm sorry for making you relive that moment.
But most of all, I'm sorry too -- for being happy anyway, because you love me, and don't blame me.
[even now, after what itsuki did, and for forcing his way. for dragging buzen into a dream so he can relive what the word paraiso means, for scaring him so badly]
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he's stopped wanting to -- ever since he met buzen. so he takes buzen's honesty and folds it into his heart, the knowledge that buzen was hurt and that he doesn't blame him,
he never wants to forget again. he leans into the hand, closing his eyes, his voice rough]
I... [...a little helplessly,] I'm sorry.
For what I did -- and for feeling guilty... [because he knows that will make buzen sad too,] I'm sorry for always trying to get my own way. ...And I'm sorry for making you relive that moment.
But most of all, I'm sorry too -- for being happy anyway, because you love me, and don't blame me.
[even now, after what itsuki did, and for forcing his way. for dragging buzen into a dream so he can relive what the word paraiso means, for scaring him so badly]