[he's already so unwilling to agree to this - but he admits that given that itsuki tends to get. jealous? it's probably fair for him to want to be with buzen when he goes to roxana's world, if only for his peace of mind.
as for how dangerous...
buzen frowns.]
... missions in the modern era are fine, because they're performances.
But I don't think I want you to go with us deeper into history. The enemy could attack at any moment. I'm fairly sure that we could protect you most of the time - but if they discover you're there and we aren't with you, you could be in danger or taken hostage.
[put him to work in roxana's world!!! he can do subterfuge as a sexy ikemen -- well, he's thinking of something along those lines. a way to be helpful that doesn't involve fighting. if buzen and roxana have that covered, then he could support them in other ways...
he's distracted from thinking further by Buzen's answer, and he looks surprised. as if he hasn't quite comprehended what going on a mission could exactly mean. his reaction probably proves to buzen that he's not ready, but]
...I won't insist if that's how you feel.
[he'll regret this when buzen's away for two months]
But what if I trained really hard? And learned how to take care of myself if I end up in that sort of situation? That could help, right?
[the way this sounds like he's insisting, but these are hypothetical questions! yeah!]
[ . . . would training really hard work? buzen has to think about it. it's so rare to find a human who is able to stand up even briefly against the retrograde army. they're famed warriors, who are already familiar with the battlefield - and even then, sometimes they don't make it. sometimes they cut through armies without so much as flinching. the battlefield can be unpredictable.
could he really send itsuki out to that type of situation? could buzen open himself up to the possibility of losing him, if it means itsuki got the freedom he wanted?]
.... maybe.
[he'll let his thumb brush over itsuki's hand.]
I still don't think I'd like it. There's nothing for you on these missions. Our war isn't yours, and I don't want to risk losing you.
But if it's something you decide you want, we can talk about it later.
[they're going to have their first fight over this]
itsuki's simple, in that he wants to care about everything the person he loves is involved in. even if it's something as far off as the concept of war. he's thinking less about the big picture and more about how he just wants to be with Buzen, he wants to share that with him.
but he also knows that he's human, and that buzen is a sword. and he knows they've just come from a place where they both died -- even if it hadn't been permanent. maybe that's why Itsuki decides to shelve the subject for now. he tugs on Buzen's hand and ducks his head down so he can kiss him, soft and lingering.]
...Okay. Let's talk about it later then.
[they'll talk about it again so they can chef's kiss fight]
Will you bring your phone with you at least? I'd like to talk to you for however long you're gone for.
[there is a part of buzen that wonders if this is selfish. if he is asking itsuki to remain in one place when he knows that buzen will be doing something dangerous. but he also think that there is something inherently different to it.
in that itsuki is a human, and buzen is a sword. and a sword is always meant to break before a human.
the kiss keeps him from saying it, which means they will definitely be arguing about it later.]
Oh... yeah - I can definitely bring my phone. I don't see why that'd be a problem. You'd just have to wait until I can message you back... but I'll always message you back.
it's like itsuki has some kind of sixth sense for when to kiss your boyfriend before you can get into a huge argument with them
for now, he thinks that's enough. better than the letters -- for one thing, he'll know that Buzen's alive and for another, they can have an actual conversation in real time... or in whatever time buzen can spare.
will it be enough? he's not sure.
but he thinks he should at least try first,]
It'll be our first time texting each other. [...] I liked reading your letters, but I'm glad I won't have to wait as long to hear back from you.
...Mm, I feel the same way. [he's not blushing blushing, but there is a faint dusting of pink on his cheeks,
he lifts up Buzen's hand so he can kiss the center of his palm,]
I like being close to you, but I also like getting to read what you write to me. It's why I kept the letters I wrote to you. They're like tokens of our love.
[itsuki is such a gushy romantic and i find that very funny when buzen is :o? about it]
[oh right. it was after meteion and roxana both died. he seems thoughtful about it for a moment, before he uses that hand on itsuki's cheek to guide him closer.]
Some of it was related to the mission... but for what wasn't...
Part of it was about Ro, but we figured that out. And I think I wanted to reassure you that I had Mete-chan... [he pauses, and then laughs] I thought about the letters you sent me, and how they touched me. I still don't think that I'm very good with words, though I'll try to be if that's what you want. Even then, I think I only know simple things.
Like... how I'm yours. And I want to belong to you.
And that I'd cut into anything that ever tried to take you from me.
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itsuki died that week so imagine how buzen felt about danny! anyway it's fine it's still romantic even though buzen doesn't realize it's romantic,]
[he follows Buzen's hand, leaning into it as he huffs a little,]
...You are good with words. [softly, the way his heart is beating faster is proof of that.
and he'll tug Buzen's hand to his chest so he can feel it for himself,]
Whether it's simple or elaborate... that doesn't matter. I love your sincerity.
[imagine getting a letter from your dead boyfriend saying that they have to talk,,,,
but the rest of that is very romantic! even if buzen doesn't realize! it's not as if Itsuki hadn't realized how upset Buzen was, but this does give a bigger picture of how he must have felt at learning that Itsuki was dead...]
[ . . . ? he tilts his head a little when he notices the beating of itsuki's heart, like he's not sure what he said that managed to make him feel that way. but still...
he can't say that he hates it. it's satisfying, to know how he can affect his lover even when he doesn't mean to. (buzen will never realize the extent that he does,,)]
Mm... then I'm glad you think so. I only ever want to give you the truth.
I'll do better about telling you in other ways too, even though I like saying it to your face the most. If you want tokens... then I'll figure it out so I can give you everything you want.
[his little head tilt.... and the way he's so doting...
buzen might not know the extent, but... isn't that one of the reasons why Itsuki fell for him? because he treated him like he'd treat anyone -- genuine and soft. and that kindness drew itsuki to him.]
You can always ask me. You don't have to figure it out all by yourself. [he sounds so amused... he moves his head as if he's going to kiss the hand cupping his face,
but he'll nibble on it instead, a little playful nip]
Remember what I said? [it's been a while honestly, but] You're not responsible for making me happy. Rather, I'd like it if you were happy with me.
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[he's already so unwilling to agree to this - but he admits that given that itsuki tends to get. jealous? it's probably fair for him to want to be with buzen when he goes to roxana's world, if only for his peace of mind.
as for how dangerous...
buzen frowns.]
... missions in the modern era are fine, because they're performances.
But I don't think I want you to go with us deeper into history. The enemy could attack at any moment. I'm fairly sure that we could protect you most of the time - but if they discover you're there and we aren't with you, you could be in danger or taken hostage.
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he's distracted from thinking further by Buzen's answer, and he looks surprised. as if he hasn't quite comprehended what going on a mission could exactly mean. his reaction probably proves to buzen that he's not ready, but]
...I won't insist if that's how you feel.
[he'll regret this when buzen's away for two months]
But what if I trained really hard? And learned how to take care of myself if I end up in that sort of situation? That could help, right?
[the way this sounds like he's insisting, but these are hypothetical questions! yeah!]
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could he really send itsuki out to that type of situation? could buzen open himself up to the possibility of losing him, if it means itsuki got the freedom he wanted?]
.... maybe.
[he'll let his thumb brush over itsuki's hand.]
I still don't think I'd like it. There's nothing for you on these missions. Our war isn't yours, and I don't want to risk losing you.
But if it's something you decide you want, we can talk about it later.
[they're going to have their first fight over this]
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itsuki's simple, in that he wants to care about everything the person he loves is involved in. even if it's something as far off as the concept of war. he's thinking less about the big picture and more about how he just wants to be with Buzen, he wants to share that with him.
but he also knows that he's human, and that buzen is a sword. and he knows they've just come from a place where they both died -- even if it hadn't been permanent. maybe that's why Itsuki decides to shelve the subject for now. he tugs on Buzen's hand and ducks his head down so he can kiss him, soft and lingering.]
...Okay. Let's talk about it later then.
[they'll talk about it again so they can chef's kiss fight]
Will you bring your phone with you at least? I'd like to talk to you for however long you're gone for.
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in that itsuki is a human, and buzen is a sword. and a sword is always meant to break before a human.
the kiss keeps him from saying it, which means they will definitely be arguing about it later.]
Oh... yeah - I can definitely bring my phone. I don't see why that'd be a problem. You'd just have to wait until I can message you back... but I'll always message you back.
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it's like itsuki has some kind of sixth sense for when to kiss your boyfriend before you can get into a huge argument with them
for now, he thinks that's enough. better than the letters -- for one thing, he'll know that Buzen's alive and for another, they can have an actual conversation in real time... or in whatever time buzen can spare.
will it be enough? he's not sure.
but he thinks he should at least try first,]
It'll be our first time texting each other. [...] I liked reading your letters, but I'm glad I won't have to wait as long to hear back from you.
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Why would I text you or send letters if I ever had the option to be next to you? [???] I want to stay with you as much as I can too, you know.
You're the only one I want to be this close to all the time.
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...Mm, I feel the same way. [he's not blushing blushing, but there is a faint dusting of pink on his cheeks,
he lifts up Buzen's hand so he can kiss the center of his palm,]
I like being close to you, but I also like getting to read what you write to me. It's why I kept the letters I wrote to you. They're like tokens of our love.
[itsuki is such a gushy romantic and i find that very funny when buzen is :o? about it]
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[he'll let itsuki kiss the center of his palm - but he'll also reach out to cup itsuki's cheek after? hmmm...]
What did I even write...
[idiot
buffoon
moron]
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he kisses the hand cupping his cheek, and looks at him. with. hopeful eyes.]
Do you remember a part of it maybe? A line?
[:( buzen.....]
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... that week was...
[oh right. it was after meteion and roxana both died. he seems thoughtful about it for a moment, before he uses that hand on itsuki's cheek to guide him closer.]
Some of it was related to the mission... but for what wasn't...
Part of it was about Ro, but we figured that out. And I think I wanted to reassure you that I had Mete-chan... [he pauses, and then laughs] I thought about the letters you sent me, and how they touched me. I still don't think that I'm very good with words, though I'll try to be if that's what you want. Even then, I think I only know simple things.
Like... how I'm yours. And I want to belong to you.
And that I'd cut into anything that ever tried to take you from me.
[
itsuki died that week so imagine how buzen felt about danny! anyway it's fine it's still romantic even though buzen doesn't realize it's romantic,]
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...You are good with words. [softly, the way his heart is beating faster is proof of that.
and he'll tug Buzen's hand to his chest so he can feel it for himself,]
Whether it's simple or elaborate... that doesn't matter. I love your sincerity.
[imagine getting a letter from your dead boyfriend saying that they have to talk,,,,
but the rest of that is very romantic! even if buzen doesn't realize! it's not as if Itsuki hadn't realized how upset Buzen was, but this does give a bigger picture of how he must have felt at learning that Itsuki was dead...]
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he can't say that he hates it. it's satisfying, to know how he can affect his lover even when he doesn't mean to. (buzen will never realize the extent that he does,,)]
Mm... then I'm glad you think so. I only ever want to give you the truth.
I'll do better about telling you in other ways too, even though I like saying it to your face the most. If you want tokens... then I'll figure it out so I can give you everything you want.
[HE'S SO DOTING FOREVER.......]
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buzen might not know the extent, but... isn't that one of the reasons why Itsuki fell for him? because he treated him like he'd treat anyone -- genuine and soft. and that kindness drew itsuki to him.]
You can always ask me. You don't have to figure it out all by yourself. [he sounds so amused... he moves his head as if he's going to kiss the hand cupping his face,
but he'll nibble on it instead, a little playful nip]
Remember what I said? [it's been a while honestly, but] You're not responsible for making me happy. Rather, I'd like it if you were happy with me.
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buzen manages to look confused at the nip... what did he say....?]
Mm...? Of course I'm happy with you.
I just want to make sure there's nothing left for you to want.
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itsuki hums]
Nothing left that I want...? [HM...] I don't think that's possible.
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but also!!!
he looks so concerned right now!!!]
Eh? Why not?
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Hmm... Do you wanna try guessing?
[itsuki don't do this to ur 8 int boyfriend]
What's something I'll always want?
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buzen just looks so stumped i hate this so much why is itsuki this way]
...? K... Kisses?
[DON'T JUST
THROW THE FIRST WORD OUT THERE]
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his lips are twitching, and he'll kiss Buzen's fingers for this good try]
You're close...
[buzen is right in that he'll always want kisses]
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[WHY DID YOU MAKE ME TYPE THIS TAG]
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HE'S NOT WRONG.........................]
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I meant you, Buzen.
[he ruffles his hair, fond. SO LIKE. KISSES AND SEX ARE BOTH TECHNICALLY RIGHT I GUESS!!! GOD!!!!]
I'll always want you.
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Eh....
But you'll always have me...
[so how could itsuki ever be left wanting for anything! even buzen can admit that they can't just fuck all day everyday!]
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the way i had this tag open during paraiso and now im depressed
(cards against humanity voice) a sad handjob
ALMSLDMGSG :AMEN: (DEPRESSED)
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