[maybe someone should consider holding itsuki accountable for his actions - i keep thinking that roxana would and that'll make crau3 so fucking funny but
it doesn't even so much as occur to buzen why itsuki might be apologizing for all these things. it's not as though they came as a surprise or were done maliciously - buzen even agreed to everything about tonight's dream. so instead he'll simply gently pull on itsuki's hand to encourage him closer, slipping his fingers out of their hold only so that buzen can encourage itsuki into his arms in a warm embrace underneath the cherry blossoms]
... I forgive you.
[just as easy as breathing]
I do love you. You make me happier so much more than you could ever make me unhappy, even if some things hurt or sting in the moment. So how could I ever hold anything against you, when I'd always rather you be happy?
itsuki needs no encouragement, he slips into Buzen's embrace immediately, pressing his body against his -- letting that warmth suffuse through him. it reminds him of the day he first met buzen. how was it possible that he could have been surprised? discomfited to have his guard rattled so thoroughly?
how was it possible when being in buzen's arms makes so much sense? his hands come up to hold him back, hoping he can repay even a tenth of that warmth. buzen loves him, and itsuki loves him back,]
You're amazing. [...] Every part of you.
[the buzen who loves him, the buzen who upholds the mission and somehow keeps his heart throughout,]
Thank you for telling me, Buzen. For taking a chance on me. ...I love you.
[his emotions are so focused. the cherry blossom trees rustle, more flowers bloom beneath their feet, the faint sound of music floats on the air -- all keyed to itsuki's emotions, despite it being buzen's dream. or maybe the dream is responding to both of them, to the softness of this shared moment.]
[hugs are truly buzen's favorite. hugging itsuki even moreso.
it feels so reminiscent of the very first time that itsuki so easily came into his arms, even though so much has changed since then. but he would like it if no matter where they are, it was an easy thing to come back to exactly this. having his arms around the person he wants to hold onto for as long as he can - this person who crossed worlds just for him.]
I'll take a chance on you everyday, every single time, Suki. [confidently - there's so many things buzen doesn't know, but this is one thing that simply makes sense to him] You'll always be worth it.
I really love you, Itsuki.
[and he'll say it as many times as itsuki would like to hear it]
It's cute how Buzen trusts him... not many people would without paying a price first. He holds Buzen closer, as the edges of the dream slowly grow fuzzy]
...See you soon.
[and dissipate entirely, bringing them both to wakefulness,]
anyway buzen echoes the same 'see you soon' - but then slowly lets his eyes open. he's the type to wake up early, and he wonders if itsuki let them rise at his usual hour... even if normally he'd let itsuki sleep in a little more.
he glances over, a little curious if itsuki is also awake... but for now he just shifts so that he can hold him a little closer, enjoying the warm wash of the room as the sun begins to rise on the citadel]
buzen's home after so many days, which means waking up quickly is preferable to sleeping in now. that itsuki would reach a point in his life where he'd prefer reality to dreams... he'd never would have imagined it,
he turns his head, pressing a kiss to buzen's forehead,]
Good morning.
...How do you feel? Your body shouldn't feel tired, but...
[mental exhaustion can still be a thing -- and the first part of that dream had been intense,]
Depending on the situation, yeah. Or if we have to keep watch over someone that we need to protect, the night can be a great time for the enemy to strike.
Missions have moments when they're fun... but we really don't have much room to fail.
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it doesn't even so much as occur to buzen why itsuki might be apologizing for all these things. it's not as though they came as a surprise or were done maliciously - buzen even agreed to everything about tonight's dream. so instead he'll simply gently pull on itsuki's hand to encourage him closer, slipping his fingers out of their hold only so that buzen can encourage itsuki into his arms in a warm embrace underneath the cherry blossoms]
... I forgive you.
[just as easy as breathing]
I do love you. You make me happier so much more than you could ever make me unhappy, even if some things hurt or sting in the moment. So how could I ever hold anything against you, when I'd always rather you be happy?
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itsuki needs no encouragement, he slips into Buzen's embrace immediately, pressing his body against his -- letting that warmth suffuse through him. it reminds him of the day he first met buzen. how was it possible that he could have been surprised? discomfited to have his guard rattled so thoroughly?
how was it possible when being in buzen's arms makes so much sense? his hands come up to hold him back, hoping he can repay even a tenth of that warmth. buzen loves him, and itsuki loves him back,]
You're amazing. [...] Every part of you.
[the buzen who loves him, the buzen who upholds the mission and somehow keeps his heart throughout,]
Thank you for telling me, Buzen. For taking a chance on me. ...I love you.
[his emotions are so focused. the cherry blossom trees rustle, more flowers bloom beneath their feet, the faint sound of music floats on the air -- all keyed to itsuki's emotions, despite it being buzen's dream. or maybe the dream is responding to both of them, to the softness of this shared moment.]
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it feels so reminiscent of the very first time that itsuki so easily came into his arms, even though so much has changed since then. but he would like it if no matter where they are, it was an easy thing to come back to exactly this. having his arms around the person he wants to hold onto for as long as he can - this person who crossed worlds just for him.]
I'll take a chance on you everyday, every single time, Suki. [confidently - there's so many things buzen doesn't know, but this is one thing that simply makes sense to him] You'll always be worth it.
I really love you, Itsuki.
[and he'll say it as many times as itsuki would like to hear it]
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he'll never give those days up, not for anything, simply because this right here is what he's always wanted.]
I'll always be here for you to take a chance on. ...Always.
[even if he has to eventually leave, but like buzen said, that doesn't have to be forever. eventually, he lifts his head, lips brushing buzen's ear]
,,,The sun's up. Shall we go?
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now they have forever.
but buzen will just press a kiss to itsuki's cheek then, nodding]
Mm. We can go.
[he really is fine just leaving this dream entirely in itsuki's hands]
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It's cute how Buzen trusts him... not many people would without paying a price first. He holds Buzen closer, as the edges of the dream slowly grow fuzzy]
...See you soon.
[and dissipate entirely, bringing them both to wakefulness,]
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anyway buzen echoes the same 'see you soon' - but then slowly lets his eyes open. he's the type to wake up early, and he wonders if itsuki let them rise at his usual hour... even if normally he'd let itsuki sleep in a little more.
he glances over, a little curious if itsuki is also awake... but for now he just shifts so that he can hold him a little closer, enjoying the warm wash of the room as the sun begins to rise on the citadel]
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buzen's home after so many days, which means waking up quickly is preferable to sleeping in now. that itsuki would reach a point in his life where he'd prefer reality to dreams... he'd never would have imagined it,
he turns his head, pressing a kiss to buzen's forehead,]
Good morning.
...How do you feel? Your body shouldn't feel tired, but...
[mental exhaustion can still be a thing -- and the first part of that dream had been intense,]
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[some of that mental exhaustion is there but - he just turns his head so that he can press his lips against itsuki's instead for a proper kiss]
Some missions require not sleeping at all some nights... so I'm better off than those times at least.
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Yeah? [...] Because you have to be alert at all times?
[he can't forget the way buzen didn't let his guard down even once, despite knowing it was a dream]
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Depending on the situation, yeah. Or if we have to keep watch over someone that we need to protect, the night can be a great time for the enemy to strike.
Missions have moments when they're fun... but we really don't have much room to fail.
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That won't be a problem for me. I used to stay up all night all the time, like back on the ship.
[granted he's never had to stay up for something actually important, but... he leans in to kiss buzen again]
Let's meet in the dojo later when you have time.
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... we'll figure it out. Sometimes we split up for missions too but... as long as you don't go onto an actual battlefield or war zone...
That'll be enough for me.
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[so he can entrust this twink to other swords!! itsuki will be good!!
(except he won't but that's fine)]
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but buzen will just nod because he doesn't see a reason why he wouldn't believe this]
Mm, good. Then... that'll give me a lot less to worry about.
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he'll nuzzle in close to buzen even though it's time to get up,]
...Thank you, Buzen.
[for giving him a chance! for saying yes! and not for the other things like inadvertently creating more trauma
also, even though he said this earlier, he thinks it bears repeating,]
And welcome home.
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... I'm happy to be home.
Thank you, for being my home.