[STOP NO I CURSE BUZEN AND ITSUKI WITH SLEEPY BINCH DISEASE,
Itsuki nuzzles Buzen, happy...]
Mm. Let me get our clothes.
[that are probably all over the place because itsuki failed his one malewife duty, what good is he if he can't do this. at least he gets another towel to help wipe buzen down,]
What kind of tea do you like? I'll start making it as soon as we get back.
[LITERALLY ANY TEA, HE DOESN'T HAVE A PREFERENCE. he clears his throat experimentally but will also just. take the towel thanks god there was so much exertion for him today]
I normally just have green, but if there's one you like a lot then I want to try it.
[the way itsuki is feeling so conflicted? should he be happy? does this mean buzen trusts in him, or that the thought simply never occurred to him? he's looking at the :) on buzen's face and realization is about to dawn on him]
Of course not. I've never looked at anyone else ever, the whole...
[...]
The whole time -- when you were with me and when you... weren't... I...
he's drooping so much and buzen will just instinctively encourage itsuki back into his arms? clearly this is something that you will want to tell your very sweet boyfriend who holds you gently whenever you seem even a little sad,]
WORSE??? IT'S GETTING WORSE??? Itsuki does not resist, because he feels like pushing Buzen away would be the cherry on the cheating sundae he's about to serve him,]
I...slept with someone.
A kitsune...
Um, it was Crow, actually... But he was a kitsune! So -- it wasn't really him? It was like -- an alternate version.
[ . . . ? buzen tilts his head, trying to really understand the situation. he echoes the word 'cheated' vaguely, as if slowly grasping it in the context of the situation]
Oh, because... you said you only want to be with me, and me to be with you?
[ . . . ]
Mmm, well... I said that it'd be okay if you changed your mind... and it still is.... [he might be a little more disappointed? but well,] But you didn't really change your mind....
If you were intimate with someone else, the only thing I care about it is if they're nice to you. If they were mean to you, or treated you poorly, I'd be angry.
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Itsuki nuzzles Buzen, happy...]
Mm. Let me get our clothes.
[that are probably all over the place because itsuki failed his one malewife duty, what good is he if he can't do this. at least he gets another towel to help wipe buzen down,]
What kind of tea do you like? I'll start making it as soon as we get back.
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[LITERALLY ANY TEA, HE DOESN'T HAVE A PREFERENCE. he clears his throat experimentally but will also just. take the towel thanks god there was so much exertion for him today]
I normally just have green, but if there's one you like a lot then I want to try it.
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he'll help buzen get into his clothes. so generous of itsuki to let buzen keep his crop top on, wow]
I'll make you some ginger tea then. I used to make it whenever the girls got sick. I'll add some honey to it too.
[sweets for sweet buzen....]
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Are you looking after me the same way that you would the girls?
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Will you get jealous if I say yes?
[no
buzen will not]
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? ]
Am...
Am I supposed to....?
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Well, no.
[JUST HONESTLY,]
I didn't love them the way I love you. I just looked after them. Kind of like how you look after the Gous.
[and yet itsuki gets jealous whenever buzen spends lots of time with the gous i can't]
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But Yasu-san says you get jealous of the Gous?
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Well.
[WELL.............]
That's because I'm -- intense. [yan, he means yan] I think most people wouldn't get as -- jealous as I do...
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I don't really know what the feeling is like.
[he's just. never gotten jealous,]
You can keep being intense... I know I love you differently from them, and I'll do my best to remind you of that too.
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he kisses buzen, softly -- almost a little shy,]
Mm... I'm happy that you love and accept me.
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wait]
-- So you've never felt jealous before?
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No? Should I have?
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Of course not. I've never looked at anyone else ever, the whole...
[...]
The whole time -- when you were with me and when you... weren't... I...
[.........................?]
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You....?
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oh noooo
oh nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo]
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he is hesitant though, visibly so. he puts a hand over the back of his neck, drooping like a bruised violet...]
Um, back at the prism -- when I went on one of those adventures... The one where I was a kitsune... The one where -- I lost my memories of you...
[drooping.... he's struggling....]
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he's drooping so much and buzen will just instinctively encourage itsuki back into his arms? clearly this is something that you will want to tell your very sweet boyfriend who holds you gently whenever you seem even a little sad,]
Mm...? What about it...?
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THIS IS
WORSE??? IT'S GETTING WORSE??? Itsuki does not resist, because he feels like pushing Buzen away would be the cherry on the cheating sundae he's about to serve him,]
I...slept with someone.
A kitsune...
Um, it was Crow, actually... But he was a kitsune! So -- it wasn't really him? It was like -- an alternate version.
[DOES THAT MAKE IT BETTER?]
...I'm sorry, Buzen.
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huh!]
Um. Okay?
Was it bad? Was he mean to you? Should I kick his ass?
[IS THAT WHY ITSUKI'S SAD!!!!!!!!!!]
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'IS BUZEN ASKING IF THE SEX WAS BAD????????????? THE WAY BOTH CROW AND BUZEN ASKED THIS QUESTION???????????????????????????]
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[HIS DEPRESSED 'IM A CHEATER' MOMENT DERAILED SO QUICKLY]
Kick his ass? Shouldn't you kick mine?
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whoa this escalated quickly! buzen looks genuinely alarmed at that, worried]
What? Why would I do that? Did I say something...?
[to make itsuki feel unsafe...??]
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...Aren't you angry?
[itsuki use ur int and assess the situation for the love of god,]
...I cheated on you with someone else.
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Oh, because... you said you only want to be with me, and me to be with you?
[ . . . ]
Mmm, well... I said that it'd be okay if you changed your mind... and it still is.... [he might be a little more disappointed? but well,] But you didn't really change your mind....
If you were intimate with someone else, the only thing I care about it is if they're nice to you. If they were mean to you, or treated you poorly, I'd be angry.
But Crow's a pretty nice guy so...
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