[ . . . buzen will do his best to remember that, then. in the next life, when he catches sight of itsuki on a crowded street, leaving a life untouched by historical revisionists and the horrors of war, buzen will try to recall this moment. that itsuki wants to know him, to remember him, even if it might mean some of that peace being disrupted.
briefly, buzen wonders if itsuki again is misjudging exactly what he's asking for.
. . . but maybe it's okay, if buzen wants this, too.
he runs his fingers through itsuki's hair, expression softening as he leans forward to press a kiss to his forehead.]
Is that what love means to you?
[to hold onto that unwavering dedication and loyalty, even if it means being mad at yourself for things outside of your control? he's not sure if he entirely agrees with it... even if he does understand the underlying sentiment of the words. to want to give all of yourself to someone, no reservations.]
... I'll keep taking care of you then, in this life and the next, so I can live up to that kind of devotion. So I can accept your heart without wondering if I deserve it.
[itsuki opens his eyes at the question, thoughtful.]
...It's how I feel when it comes to you, so it must be.
[holding himself to standard when before he'd never bothered to try because he was always convinced that he'd fail. ...but he wants to try now, for this sword with a human heart who he loves,
he leans in a little, shuffles down so he can press a kiss over the soft beat of buzen's heart. reveling in the reality of this moment, that he can be present with him even now. proof that he belongs to buzen, and buzen belongs to him.]
I'll do my best too. To meet you no matter what, so I can love you all over again.
buzen's expression warms gently over the kiss, the affection, shifting only so it's easier for him to be able to hold itsuki gently. he lets his fingers run through his hair, other hand rubbing his back in slow, reassuring circles.]
... then I'll look forward to it. I'll let myself believe, as long as it's you that I'm believing in.
[so that they can meet again, so that he can be the one that itsuki might want to fall in love with... regardless of who else he might kiss or touch in the meantime. and if he ever does, then buzen will just forgive him all over again.
but it'd be nice, he thinks.
if itsuki's heart could always lead them back together.]
[itsuki's lips curl into a smile against buzen's heart, marveling at how easy it is to be happy now, how buzen makes him happy. the hand on his back feels warm and reassuring, echoing the solidity of his words. he moves up, pressing a line of kisses into the hollow of buzen's throat, on his lips]
...I won't keep you waiting for too long, promise.
[time holds a different meaning to buzen, itsuki knows. still, he'd like to spend all of that time with him, as much as he can.
speaking of spending time... he doesn't want to move from buzen's embrace or unlink his own hands from around him, but...]
Shall we go home?
[it's different, but it still makes him happy, it's still happiness.]
[he leans in to give itsuki one more kiss, lingering and sweet, before he shifts his hold on itsuki. he tucks one arm underneath his knees and the other at his back before going to lift him right up, ready to carry him home]
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briefly, buzen wonders if itsuki again is misjudging exactly what he's asking for.
. . . but maybe it's okay, if buzen wants this, too.
he runs his fingers through itsuki's hair, expression softening as he leans forward to press a kiss to his forehead.]
Is that what love means to you?
[to hold onto that unwavering dedication and loyalty, even if it means being mad at yourself for things outside of your control? he's not sure if he entirely agrees with it... even if he does understand the underlying sentiment of the words. to want to give all of yourself to someone, no reservations.]
... I'll keep taking care of you then, in this life and the next, so I can live up to that kind of devotion. So I can accept your heart without wondering if I deserve it.
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...It's how I feel when it comes to you, so it must be.
[holding himself to standard when before he'd never bothered to try because he was always convinced that he'd fail. ...but he wants to try now, for this sword with a human heart who he loves,
he leans in a little, shuffles down so he can press a kiss over the soft beat of buzen's heart. reveling in the reality of this moment, that he can be present with him even now. proof that he belongs to buzen, and buzen belongs to him.]
I'll do my best too. To meet you no matter what, so I can love you all over again.
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buzen's expression warms gently over the kiss, the affection, shifting only so it's easier for him to be able to hold itsuki gently. he lets his fingers run through his hair, other hand rubbing his back in slow, reassuring circles.]
... then I'll look forward to it. I'll let myself believe, as long as it's you that I'm believing in.
[so that they can meet again, so that he can be the one that itsuki might want to fall in love with... regardless of who else he might kiss or touch in the meantime. and if he ever does, then buzen will just forgive him all over again.
but it'd be nice, he thinks.
if itsuki's heart could always lead them back together.]
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...I won't keep you waiting for too long, promise.
[time holds a different meaning to buzen, itsuki knows. still, he'd like to spend all of that time with him, as much as he can.
speaking of spending time... he doesn't want to move from buzen's embrace or unlink his own hands from around him, but...]
Shall we go home?
[it's different, but it still makes him happy, it's still happiness.]
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[he leans in to give itsuki one more kiss, lingering and sweet, before he shifts his hold on itsuki. he tucks one arm underneath his knees and the other at his back before going to lift him right up, ready to carry him home]
... thanks for being here. I hope you had fun.
[like
even before they banged,]
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but also,]
-- Wait, you don't have to carry me! You were on your feet the whole day.
[itsuki saying this after asking buzen to rail him is so]
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[
i mean technically true he does run everywhere,]
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You were dancing the entire time...
[COORDINATED DANCE MOVES LOOK LIKE THEY TAKE ENERGY??]
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buzen's just laughing though]
Do you want me to put you down?
[he will if itsuki wants him to, but he's... not tired enough to.....]
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buzen's manly arms feel so nice..........]
-- No, wait. Everyone will ask why I'm the one being carried when you were the one who was performing...
[and then they'll put 2 and 2 together about the bang,]
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I can just say that I like carrying you?
[which..... is true.........
yeah!]
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...I'll walk when we get to the citadel.
[he doesn't want to leave more psychic damage to kotegiri than he already has]]
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but buzen will just laugh and carry itsuki right along then until they make it back to the citadel,
we have to save kotegiri from this]