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[ no he seriously didn't care about tsukasa not believing he almost died (if he was actually in any danger he's pretty sure he'd care. pretty sure.) except if it nets him a hand, sure, why not. it's tsukasa's touch and the peeking hints of legitimate worry that switches leo's mind from directionless rage to something that should maybe be a little more productive... but this is actually kind of a big deal to him, because ruka is a big deal.
.....
he stops pouting. ]
Ruka's...
[ a tsukinaga, and apparently they're attracted to suou's like bees to honey. platonically or otherwise.
his lips press together again. ]
Nah, we're not mad. I mean, I'm-- I don't know, but Ruka...
[ he cannot even say this out loud. ]
Well, use your imagination. When someone says a name and it pitches higher while they blush, what do you think that means?
[ fuck ]
.....
he stops pouting. ]
Ruka's...
[ a tsukinaga, and apparently they're attracted to suou's like bees to honey. platonically or otherwise.
his lips press together again. ]
Nah, we're not mad. I mean, I'm-- I don't know, but Ruka...
[ he cannot even say this out loud. ]
Well, use your imagination. When someone says a name and it pitches higher while they blush, what do you think that means?
[ fuck ]
You don't know if you're mad...?
[again, Tsukasa chooses to fixate on that, actually looking a little concerned for now because - if Leo's actually mad at him, he's not sure how to handle it? though he puzzles over the next bit, trying to understand why exactly Leo could be mad
is he talking about ruka?]
Mm...? If it's something like that... Well, it's not like I'm familiar with the feeling [lYING LIAR LIES he is, he just never wants to admit that Leo does manage to get him to feel like that sometimes] but isn't that what happens when someone has a -
[again, Tsukasa chooses to fixate on that, actually looking a little concerned for now because - if Leo's actually mad at him, he's not sure how to handle it? though he puzzles over the next bit, trying to understand why exactly Leo could be mad
is he talking about ruka?]
Mm...? If it's something like that... Well, it's not like I'm familiar with the feeling [lYING LIAR LIES he is, he just never wants to admit that Leo does manage to get him to feel like that sometimes] but isn't that what happens when someone has a -
[oh
o h]
Ruka-sama has a crush on me....?
[what the fUCK THAT'S SO PURE
forget being worried about Leo being mad at him for like five seconds, Tsukasa's actually kind of delighted??]
Really? Me? She's looking at me like a man?
[THIS IS HOW YOU'D GET DECKED, TSUKASA. GONNA CATCH THESE HANDS]
How... How precious! Ruka-sama is so cute - I'm honored! And that's why she asked for me? I suppose I haven't visited in some time... how awful of me. I hope she's not lonely?
[RIP]
o h]
Ruka-sama has a crush on me....?
[what the fUCK THAT'S SO PURE
forget being worried about Leo being mad at him for like five seconds, Tsukasa's actually kind of delighted??]
Really? Me? She's looking at me like a man?
[THIS IS HOW YOU'D GET DECKED, TSUKASA. GONNA CATCH THESE HANDS]
How... How precious! Ruka-sama is so cute - I'm honored! And that's why she asked for me? I suppose I haven't visited in some time... how awful of me. I hope she's not lonely?
[RIP]
[It's a 'might'.
It's a 'maybe'.
But even that is enough to scare him. Even that is enough to rattle him because then - what would all his work for the past year have been for? Trying to find his place in Yumenosaki Academy, somehow managing to establish himself well enough within Knights, and then - well, at that point his home was the one to find him, right? This practice room, the people in it, the person who takes his hand and holds it so carefully.
Tsukasa takes the contact where he can get it, holding onto Leo's hand with his own as his expression remains dim, lost, confused.]
But what if I do?
[which is the opposite of being calm and - Tsukasa is normally the rational one, isn't it? Yet he can't help it. Images flash through his brain - one-way airplane tickets, everything he knows packed up in boxes, the very idea of having to say goodbye for
how long?
Is he foolish enough to think that these ties can cross an ocean?]
Leader, I —
I don't... [his eyes shut, he shakes his head] I'm -
I'd miss you?
It's a 'maybe'.
But even that is enough to scare him. Even that is enough to rattle him because then - what would all his work for the past year have been for? Trying to find his place in Yumenosaki Academy, somehow managing to establish himself well enough within Knights, and then - well, at that point his home was the one to find him, right? This practice room, the people in it, the person who takes his hand and holds it so carefully.
Tsukasa takes the contact where he can get it, holding onto Leo's hand with his own as his expression remains dim, lost, confused.]
But what if I do?
[which is the opposite of being calm and - Tsukasa is normally the rational one, isn't it? Yet he can't help it. Images flash through his brain - one-way airplane tickets, everything he knows packed up in boxes, the very idea of having to say goodbye for
how long?
Is he foolish enough to think that these ties can cross an ocean?]
Leader, I —
I don't... [his eyes shut, he shakes his head] I'm -
I'd miss you?
[ fucking
leo was totally ready to shed his extreme amounts of GGRRRR but now tsukasa is definitely creeping up there on the list of "i am goING TO CRUSH THEM"
tsukasa's going to need to join fine because THIS IS NOT FINE, HE IS GETTING BOOTED OUT OF KNIGHTS AND JOINING THE EMPEROR IN THE SHIT PILE ]
Ahh! There's so many things wrong here, there's no beginning! Where do you start... Everything's a conflict! Who would've thought that me, a man loved by the gods, would be so betrayed by the universe?! [ not that tsukasa is the universe but he's definitely leo's personal hell, and his personal KARMA ] Yeah, I'm definitely gonna need to get Anzu...! You're millions of years too early for Ruka-tan! You're gonna have to settle with me!
[ THIS IS THE APPROPRIATE THING TO SAY TO YOUR BOYFRIEND ]
leo was totally ready to shed his extreme amounts of GGRRRR but now tsukasa is definitely creeping up there on the list of "i am goING TO CRUSH THEM"
tsukasa's going to need to join fine because THIS IS NOT FINE, HE IS GETTING BOOTED OUT OF KNIGHTS AND JOINING THE EMPEROR IN THE SHIT PILE ]
Ahh! There's so many things wrong here, there's no beginning! Where do you start... Everything's a conflict! Who would've thought that me, a man loved by the gods, would be so betrayed by the universe?! [ not that tsukasa is the universe but he's definitely leo's personal hell, and his personal KARMA ] Yeah, I'm definitely gonna need to get Anzu...! You're millions of years too early for Ruka-tan! You're gonna have to settle with me!
[ THIS IS THE APPROPRIATE THING TO SAY TO YOUR BOYFRIEND ]
[this is too funny
this is too funny.
Tsukasa’s also definitely freely laughing at this now despite Leo’s distress because c’mon, c’mon, it’s pretty hilarious to have a situation where he not only has a fantastic (if ridiculous) king and boyfriend, but has somehow managed to win over the heart of his little sister.
Honestly, Tsukasa knows that their idol work involves a lot of fan service – Knights especially sure does enjoy that aspect of it, he thinks – and sure, a lot of their fans are young ladies. These same young ladies are the ones who came up with the ‘Ou-sama’ title for Leo after calling him Leo-sama enough times anyway…. at least, that’s what he’s heard from Arashi. but it sure is something else entirely to have a girl have a crush on him
(Tsukasa, Leo’s in love with you too – please focus)
it’s probably because he’s still pleasantly buzzing from the news that he just gives Leo a smile]
Please don’t talk about yourself like that, Leader.
[see? he loves leo. how sweet, how nice -]
You’re too troublesome and annoying to settle for. It’s a lot of work to be in a relationship with you.
[TSUKASA]
this is too funny.
Tsukasa’s also definitely freely laughing at this now despite Leo’s distress because c’mon, c’mon, it’s pretty hilarious to have a situation where he not only has a fantastic (if ridiculous) king and boyfriend, but has somehow managed to win over the heart of his little sister.
Honestly, Tsukasa knows that their idol work involves a lot of fan service – Knights especially sure does enjoy that aspect of it, he thinks – and sure, a lot of their fans are young ladies. These same young ladies are the ones who came up with the ‘Ou-sama’ title for Leo after calling him Leo-sama enough times anyway…. at least, that’s what he’s heard from Arashi. but it sure is something else entirely to have a girl have a crush on him
(Tsukasa, Leo’s in love with you too – please focus)
it’s probably because he’s still pleasantly buzzing from the news that he just gives Leo a smile]
Please don’t talk about yourself like that, Leader.
[see? he loves leo. how sweet, how nice -]
You’re too troublesome and annoying to settle for. It’s a lot of work to be in a relationship with you.
[TSUKASA]
[ BURN HIM!!! BURN THE WITCH!!!
and it's not like it's the first time in his life that leo's been called a walking disaster, so he's really unfazed by that. he knows enough to be aware of the fact; besides, if tsukasa's still here despite all of that, that's definitely a good thing, right? ... but god, mentioning it in this context is just—
— you know, how can he go ahead and say "troublesome" when he's pulling stuff like this...
and also when there's laughter echoing in his ears, which makes it ever so obvious that: ]
... Yeah? But you're here laughing without a care in the world. That'd be great, usually, except right now... [ he loves the sound of tsukasa's laughter and him enjoying himself, but. you know. it's hORRIBLE RIGHT NOW? this isn't the youth he envisioned?!
he shakes his head. ] Well, whatever! This's what you get! And you're seriously too happy about hearing Ruka's got a crush on you, aren't you? I'm not gonna forget that!
[ it's hORRIBLE ]
and it's not like it's the first time in his life that leo's been called a walking disaster, so he's really unfazed by that. he knows enough to be aware of the fact; besides, if tsukasa's still here despite all of that, that's definitely a good thing, right? ... but god, mentioning it in this context is just—
— you know, how can he go ahead and say "troublesome" when he's pulling stuff like this...
and also when there's laughter echoing in his ears, which makes it ever so obvious that: ]
... Yeah? But you're here laughing without a care in the world. That'd be great, usually, except right now... [ he loves the sound of tsukasa's laughter and him enjoying himself, but. you know. it's hORRIBLE RIGHT NOW? this isn't the youth he envisioned?!
he shakes his head. ] Well, whatever! This's what you get! And you're seriously too happy about hearing Ruka's got a crush on you, aren't you? I'm not gonna forget that!
[ it's hORRIBLE ]
Hm. Yeah, that's basicall—
[ that sure is leo straightening up a tad, almost immediately, cutting himself off—as if someone poured something cold down his shirt. and the look he's tossing tsukasa is saying that he'd absolutely not expected that to come out of his mouth.
even though
he basically just said it there, in his ramblings.
but alas, too lost in his thoughts, he hadn't even realized that what he was saying could easily be compared to their own situation. ]
How'd you guess that, huh?! Were you lying about not being able to read minds?
[ that sure is leo straightening up a tad, almost immediately, cutting himself off—as if someone poured something cold down his shirt. and the look he's tossing tsukasa is saying that he'd absolutely not expected that to come out of his mouth.
even though
he basically just said it there, in his ramblings.
but alas, too lost in his thoughts, he hadn't even realized that what he was saying could easily be compared to their own situation. ]
How'd you guess that, huh?! Were you lying about not being able to read minds?
[ really damn horrible taste in men.
but, well, who cares? and sure, tsukasa may still look irritated and this may do absolutely nothing about the fact he accidentally purposely caused a ruckus on the suou estate? purposely because he knew it was probably the more boring, safe decision to announce his presence ahead of time; accidentally because he didn't think he'd get caught not doing so.
either way, it happened! and the end result is the best and the same anyway—tsukasa in his arms, and with him pulled closer leo's tugging his hands away from around his waist and instead moving them up to the hands on his shoulders, turning his head slightly as he brings one up to his lips. ]
I want to say some surprise is better than no surprise— [ ... ] —Mm, no, nevermind! Sorry, sorry.
[ he says that quietly, relaxed in the lull after almost getting kidnapped again (just kidding). but he does mean it—he's gotta admit he did raise some alarms.
what about winning tsukasa over like THIS?? ]
You ended up freeing the days I asked for, right? This's the part where I come to spirit you away! Into a journey of inspiration... A couple of steps into infinity... and maybe even beyond!
but, well, who cares? and sure, tsukasa may still look irritated and this may do absolutely nothing about the fact he accidentally purposely caused a ruckus on the suou estate? purposely because he knew it was probably the more boring, safe decision to announce his presence ahead of time; accidentally because he didn't think he'd get caught not doing so.
either way, it happened! and the end result is the best and the same anyway—tsukasa in his arms, and with him pulled closer leo's tugging his hands away from around his waist and instead moving them up to the hands on his shoulders, turning his head slightly as he brings one up to his lips. ]
I want to say some surprise is better than no surprise— [ ... ] —Mm, no, nevermind! Sorry, sorry.
[ he says that quietly, relaxed in the lull after almost getting kidnapped again (just kidding). but he does mean it—he's gotta admit he did raise some alarms.
what about winning tsukasa over like THIS?? ]
You ended up freeing the days I asked for, right? This's the part where I come to spirit you away! Into a journey of inspiration... A couple of steps into infinity... and maybe even beyond!
What are my other options? To be offended by her feelings? Rather, I think that would be more unacceptable, Leader.
[HE'S JUST GOING TO KEEP BEING CHEEKY, YOU KNOW. Except he also does believe this - because in the end, Tsukasa Suou is a gentleman. It's not like he's received many confessions from girls who seriously knew him - otherwise he turned them away, assuming they were fans who knew nothing about him truly but he would continue to help their fantasies - but it's not like he'd cruelly crush someone who seriously likes him.
But also -
He takes the hand of Leo's that he claimed instead, squeezing it reassuringly.]
Ruka-sama is a princess that deserves only the best. In regards to that, we can agree, can't we? And while I do not know if I am the best, I am still honored by her sincere feelings.
Mm, however...
[He raises Leo's hand to his lips, kissing the back of it with a smile.]
In the end, my heart has already been conquered by my king.
[HE'S JUST GOING TO KEEP BEING CHEEKY, YOU KNOW. Except he also does believe this - because in the end, Tsukasa Suou is a gentleman. It's not like he's received many confessions from girls who seriously knew him - otherwise he turned them away, assuming they were fans who knew nothing about him truly but he would continue to help their fantasies - but it's not like he'd cruelly crush someone who seriously likes him.
But also -
He takes the hand of Leo's that he claimed instead, squeezing it reassuringly.]
Ruka-sama is a princess that deserves only the best. In regards to that, we can agree, can't we? And while I do not know if I am the best, I am still honored by her sincere feelings.
Mm, however...
[He raises Leo's hand to his lips, kissing the back of it with a smile.]
In the end, my heart has already been conquered by my king.
You should be sorry.... Don't scare my servants like that?
[But.
Then there's the bit about the 'journey' and 'steps into infinity' and Tsukasa is doing his absolute best to not reveal his expression into something too stunned and shocked. That would probably bring Leo way too much delight. Except he's realizing now that these few days apparently weren't taken off for the sake of some sort of local trips or even unit training but.]
You're taking me somewhere?! Oh my god!
[nOT TOO LOUD, TSUKASA, THE SECURITY MIGHT COME BARGING BACK IN]
How? Where? Please tell me you have at least some kind of plan...?!
[But.
Then there's the bit about the 'journey' and 'steps into infinity' and Tsukasa is doing his absolute best to not reveal his expression into something too stunned and shocked. That would probably bring Leo way too much delight. Except he's realizing now that these few days apparently weren't taken off for the sake of some sort of local trips or even unit training but.]
You're taking me somewhere?! Oh my god!
[nOT TOO LOUD, TSUKASA, THE SECURITY MIGHT COME BARGING BACK IN]
How? Where? Please tell me you have at least some kind of plan...?!
[why is Leo like this]
.... Are you kidding me?
[WHY IS HE EVEN SURPRISED ANYMORE. Except he definitely still is - and that's why Tsukasa is bringing a hand up to his forehead, feeling a headache coming on.]
No, I can't read minds, Leader. Rather, you were the one to say it yourself? So that means... I'm correct? [RIGHT? Which is already a little surprising. He's still not sure what to do with this information.] You... like the song so much that you don't want anyone to hear it?
[ . . . that's
actually kind of embarrassing
uh]
.... Are you kidding me?
[WHY IS HE EVEN SURPRISED ANYMORE. Except he definitely still is - and that's why Tsukasa is bringing a hand up to his forehead, feeling a headache coming on.]
No, I can't read minds, Leader. Rather, you were the one to say it yourself? So that means... I'm correct? [RIGHT? Which is already a little surprising. He's still not sure what to do with this information.] You... like the song so much that you don't want anyone to hear it?
[ . . . that's
actually kind of embarrassing
uh]
[ i'd miss you.
after all they'd talked about, about avoiding situations where this would be a possibility, after all that leo swore that he wouldn't pick up and run off— well, that might be happening anyway? circumstances where suou would have to miss him, miss them all, where everything was kind of split apart with no fault of their own.
that was life, right...?
his thumb dusts absently, back and forth gently, at tsukasa's knuckles. his heart thumps in his ears in a way it hasn't really done, not in a while — but he continues to force himself level regardless.
except he can't. his chest is tight, and the selfish, reckless words he wants to say are spilling from his mouth so easily, because if this is what happens then isn't "honest" what he should be? ]
I know. [ just the thought is enough. ] Hey. I'd miss you too, you know? You're just talking about it, and a part of me is kinda missing you already...?
[ maybe that's silly. but he gets it—the hesitation tsukasa feels, the emotions choking him up.
leo doesn't think that the spark in his chest'd die just because the source of it went far away. he just kind of felt like he found something he wasn't even aware he was waiting for. then again, having found something like that... wouldn't it make more sense to disregard everything else and fight for it?
yet he knows tsukasa — knows his sense of loyalty and responsibility runs deeper than anyone else.
he pauses. it's not hesitation that stops him, but— consideration. organization. wondering what should be said when, but in the end decides to just let everything go, to say what comes when it comes. ]
But it's not like I'd leave or anything if... if you have to go. Don't think just because you're not here physically it's the end of everything here, yeah? I'm the King, so I can definitely say that no matter what — you're always a part of Knights. And me, you know I'm definitely too stubborn to let go of someone who makes my heart beat like this.
[ he's learned.
he came back and grasped what he left and he's never letting go again. even a long, long distance wouldn't stop that; he wouldn't let it.
if tsukasa would let him, it's selfish, but he'd even fight too. ]
after all they'd talked about, about avoiding situations where this would be a possibility, after all that leo swore that he wouldn't pick up and run off— well, that might be happening anyway? circumstances where suou would have to miss him, miss them all, where everything was kind of split apart with no fault of their own.
that was life, right...?
his thumb dusts absently, back and forth gently, at tsukasa's knuckles. his heart thumps in his ears in a way it hasn't really done, not in a while — but he continues to force himself level regardless.
except he can't. his chest is tight, and the selfish, reckless words he wants to say are spilling from his mouth so easily, because if this is what happens then isn't "honest" what he should be? ]
I know. [ just the thought is enough. ] Hey. I'd miss you too, you know? You're just talking about it, and a part of me is kinda missing you already...?
[ maybe that's silly. but he gets it—the hesitation tsukasa feels, the emotions choking him up.
leo doesn't think that the spark in his chest'd die just because the source of it went far away. he just kind of felt like he found something he wasn't even aware he was waiting for. then again, having found something like that... wouldn't it make more sense to disregard everything else and fight for it?
yet he knows tsukasa — knows his sense of loyalty and responsibility runs deeper than anyone else.
he pauses. it's not hesitation that stops him, but— consideration. organization. wondering what should be said when, but in the end decides to just let everything go, to say what comes when it comes. ]
But it's not like I'd leave or anything if... if you have to go. Don't think just because you're not here physically it's the end of everything here, yeah? I'm the King, so I can definitely say that no matter what — you're always a part of Knights. And me, you know I'm definitely too stubborn to let go of someone who makes my heart beat like this.
[ he's learned.
he came back and grasped what he left and he's never letting go again. even a long, long distance wouldn't stop that; he wouldn't let it.
if tsukasa would let him, it's selfish, but he'd even fight too. ]
Hmmm, don't scare the servants! [ little shit ] I kinda like it, though... Look, that'll be our cry of excitement for this trip, okay? The banner we'll wave proudly...! Oh my god!
[ what the fUCK that's not a good thing leo someone save tsukasa
he's saying this all with a wink, knowing exactly what he's doing, the root of suou's concerns — when he's a guy who disappears to who the fuck knows where (and that's a habit that still hasn't changed), getting told you're being "spirited away" could mean a lot of things.
yet leo seems to have about z e r o consideration for that, as he's bulldozing through with the same tone he's had, and absolutely no reassurances. actually the complete opposite of reassurances, because what he's considering appropriate to say is: ]
Anyway, I have a plan! It's, ah... What was... Ahaha, right! I wrote it down, since I knew you'd ask. Here, here. ♪
[ he'll shift a bit, making sure to keep tsukasa close, and then... he's reaching into his pocket for a folded piece of paper (wow! maybe it's an itinerary! detailed directions!) and passing it over to his wORRYWART OF A BOYFRIEND.
the fact he looks a little amused might be a trick of the light, but it's pretty clear that it isn't because when tsukasa opens the paper, there's no detailed time stamps or roads or anything it's just... one simple thing, on the page, which is otherwise blank:
"drive!"
that's fucking it that's his plan. "DRIVE" ]
[ what the fUCK that's not a good thing leo someone save tsukasa
he's saying this all with a wink, knowing exactly what he's doing, the root of suou's concerns — when he's a guy who disappears to who the fuck knows where (and that's a habit that still hasn't changed), getting told you're being "spirited away" could mean a lot of things.
yet leo seems to have about z e r o consideration for that, as he's bulldozing through with the same tone he's had, and absolutely no reassurances. actually the complete opposite of reassurances, because what he's considering appropriate to say is: ]
Anyway, I have a plan! It's, ah... What was... Ahaha, right! I wrote it down, since I knew you'd ask. Here, here. ♪
[ he'll shift a bit, making sure to keep tsukasa close, and then... he's reaching into his pocket for a folded piece of paper (wow! maybe it's an itinerary! detailed directions!) and passing it over to his wORRYWART OF A BOYFRIEND.
the fact he looks a little amused might be a trick of the light, but it's pretty clear that it isn't because when tsukasa opens the paper, there's no detailed time stamps or roads or anything it's just... one simple thing, on the page, which is otherwise blank:
"drive!"
that's fucking it that's his plan. "DRIVE" ]
[imagine if leo put as much effort into plans as he does in keeping tsukasa close
but honestly though
Tsukasa takes the paper with some modicum of relief - oh, Leo wrote something down? well inspiration tends to flow when he has a pen in his hand right maybe he has a lot of nonsense ideas in this that will be workable. That should be fine. Irritating, but fine.
This?
This is not fine.
(Apparently, this is Knights.)
because Tsukasa is just going to stare at the paper. and then turn it over. flip it around. rotate it. maybe if he keeps spinning it then he'll find some sort of plan or idea or aNYTHING HONESTLY that will reveal that he's not dating a complete and utter irresponsible moron who's determined to kidnap him and run away
but no
which is probably why Tsukasa's going to go ahead and shove the paper rIGHT BACK INTO LEO'S FACE WHILE HE SIMULTANEOUSLY PULLS AWAY]
Idiot!!
[NOPE
SO MUCH
NOPE]
but honestly though
Tsukasa takes the paper with some modicum of relief - oh, Leo wrote something down? well inspiration tends to flow when he has a pen in his hand right maybe he has a lot of nonsense ideas in this that will be workable. That should be fine. Irritating, but fine.
This?
This is not fine.
(Apparently, this is Knights.)
because Tsukasa is just going to stare at the paper. and then turn it over. flip it around. rotate it. maybe if he keeps spinning it then he'll find some sort of plan or idea or aNYTHING HONESTLY that will reveal that he's not dating a complete and utter irresponsible moron who's determined to kidnap him and run away
but no
which is probably why Tsukasa's going to go ahead and shove the paper rIGHT BACK INTO LEO'S FACE WHILE HE SIMULTANEOUSLY PULLS AWAY]
Idiot!!
[NOPE
SO MUCH
NOPE]
[Tsukasa is a selfish, spoiled young man.
It's not something that he's in denial about - he's well aware that he has a tendency to be ambitious to the point of being self-centered, even though he does his best to take notice of how his actions affect the lives of others as well. It's just a matter of fact that Tsukasa will take the things that are offered to him, will seize opportunities and endlessly acclimate good things for himself.
But is he selfish enough to accept this from Leo?
He's not prone to crying over the actions of others - his own inadequacy could at times become too much for him, but he didn't think he'd ever actually shed tears over something that Leo said to him and -
he was wrong.
Tears fill his eyes to the rim without his permission, his throat closing up even as the expression on his face can only be seen as surprise.]
Leader, I... You can't - We can't.....!
[Leo has always amazed Tsukasa, infuriated him too, but always amazed. Always been made up of the stuff of stars and infinities and possibility - even when Tsukasa couldn't understand. Tsukasa's feet have always been right on the ground, too planted to reality.
Which is why this stings.]
You don't get to just... dangle that in front of me - it's not going to work that way.... It's not!
[even if it'll hurt at first, even if tsukasa is pretty sure that he'll never be able to forget someone as impossible and amazing and infuriating and truly exceptional as Leo - he can't be this selfish and idealistic.
he can't believe that Leo would truly wait for him when he might not ever come back
and even if he let himself believe it, it would be too cruel to want it]
It's not something that he's in denial about - he's well aware that he has a tendency to be ambitious to the point of being self-centered, even though he does his best to take notice of how his actions affect the lives of others as well. It's just a matter of fact that Tsukasa will take the things that are offered to him, will seize opportunities and endlessly acclimate good things for himself.
But is he selfish enough to accept this from Leo?
He's not prone to crying over the actions of others - his own inadequacy could at times become too much for him, but he didn't think he'd ever actually shed tears over something that Leo said to him and -
he was wrong.
Tears fill his eyes to the rim without his permission, his throat closing up even as the expression on his face can only be seen as surprise.]
Leader, I... You can't - We can't.....!
[Leo has always amazed Tsukasa, infuriated him too, but always amazed. Always been made up of the stuff of stars and infinities and possibility - even when Tsukasa couldn't understand. Tsukasa's feet have always been right on the ground, too planted to reality.
Which is why this stings.]
You don't get to just... dangle that in front of me - it's not going to work that way.... It's not!
[even if it'll hurt at first, even if tsukasa is pretty sure that he'll never be able to forget someone as impossible and amazing and infuriating and truly exceptional as Leo - he can't be this selfish and idealistic.
he can't believe that Leo would truly wait for him when he might not ever come back
and even if he let himself believe it, it would be too cruel to want it]
[ that placates him for a moment, if only because it's a point. then again, he's in irrational older brother mode which means tsukasa's excitement is dangerous, and if he wasn't enthusiastic it would be offensive. was there any winning response when those were the options?
... apparently, that smooth action of tsukasa's is one. leo shifts from slightly disgruntled with a sharpness in his eyes to something resembling quiet understanding, brows still furrowed by frown turned up slightly, just to a point of neutrality, and then there's the last expression with the squeeze and kiss of his hand.
( a blink. a flicker of fondness. another slight twitch of the lips, turning that neutrality into something resembling a slightly amused smile.
honestly...
wasn't tsukasa the one that was a lot of work, in a different way? )
finally, leo responds, and the grin remains. ]
Hey, [ he leans in slightly. lingers closer. ] That's what you say in the beginning, Suo.
[ and him thinking that it's stuff like that that nabbed him both tsukinagas goes unsaid.
he may be overprotective, but it's not like he can deny ruka's taste. if she can find someone like tsukasa, who iSN'T TSUKASA, then maybe he could come to accept that. later. with some time. there's only a small moment of silence before leo fills it again, his eyes twinkling with that something he always gets when he looks at suou, like when he's composing, except it's amped up to eleven. he's writing the best thing he's ever done. ]
You said you're not sure, right? If you're the best for Ruka. I don't think so, nah. [ and maybe that might be considered an insult, but leo is leo, and he continues wonderfully sincere: ] 'Cause you're the best for me.
... apparently, that smooth action of tsukasa's is one. leo shifts from slightly disgruntled with a sharpness in his eyes to something resembling quiet understanding, brows still furrowed by frown turned up slightly, just to a point of neutrality, and then there's the last expression with the squeeze and kiss of his hand.
( a blink. a flicker of fondness. another slight twitch of the lips, turning that neutrality into something resembling a slightly amused smile.
honestly...
wasn't tsukasa the one that was a lot of work, in a different way? )
finally, leo responds, and the grin remains. ]
Hey, [ he leans in slightly. lingers closer. ] That's what you say in the beginning, Suo.
[ and him thinking that it's stuff like that that nabbed him both tsukinagas goes unsaid.
he may be overprotective, but it's not like he can deny ruka's taste. if she can find someone like tsukasa, who iSN'T TSUKASA, then maybe he could come to accept that. later. with some time. there's only a small moment of silence before leo fills it again, his eyes twinkling with that something he always gets when he looks at suou, like when he's composing, except it's amped up to eleven. he's writing the best thing he's ever done. ]
You said you're not sure, right? If you're the best for Ruka. I don't think so, nah. [ and maybe that might be considered an insult, but leo is leo, and he continues wonderfully sincere: ] 'Cause you're the best for me.
[ nnNNNOOOOOO. just kidding, leo totally expected this and he laughs, laughs like there isn't a paper shoved in his face. the only thing that's stopping is the full sound of it, muffling the result of his carefree spirited behaviour, because it's certainly not stopping the source.
idiot, tsukasa says, and it's not as if leo can deny it. well, rather than idiot... he'd like to say he's just beyond acting around boundaries that don't really matter, and "carefully planned trips" was just one of those things that didn't make the cut for exceptions.
the importance of it all wasn't where they were going, was it? just the act of it, the company... that's all that really matters. like names, the superficial outside did nothing to define the substance or content. why bother wasting time on that?!
and right now, despite being shoved and him trying to get away, leo's still trying to keep the important part of the trip close.
and also trying to get that paper out of his face at the same time HELLO HOW COULD YOU DO THIS ]
Gentle as always, huh! Shoo, shoo! [ yes that is said to the paper. get OUT OF HERE ] I said it was a journey of inspiration, Tsu—if you limit yourself right from the beginning, d'you really expect to get the most out of it?
[ in some twisted world this makes sense.
leo's world.
who really wants to be part of leo's world— ]
idiot, tsukasa says, and it's not as if leo can deny it. well, rather than idiot... he'd like to say he's just beyond acting around boundaries that don't really matter, and "carefully planned trips" was just one of those things that didn't make the cut for exceptions.
the importance of it all wasn't where they were going, was it? just the act of it, the company... that's all that really matters. like names, the superficial outside did nothing to define the substance or content. why bother wasting time on that?!
and right now, despite being shoved and him trying to get away, leo's still trying to keep the important part of the trip close.
and also trying to get that paper out of his face at the same time HELLO HOW COULD YOU DO THIS ]
Gentle as always, huh! Shoo, shoo! [ yes that is said to the paper. get OUT OF HERE ] I said it was a journey of inspiration, Tsu—if you limit yourself right from the beginning, d'you really expect to get the most out of it?
[ in some twisted world this makes sense.
leo's world.
who really wants to be part of leo's world— ]
[ and were leo someone saner, this is where the embarrassment of having basically not registered what came out of his mouth would sink in, but instead he just nods as if tsukasa didn't just basically tell him he has no idea what he's saying. rather, what's causing him to pause now isn't his own impressive ability of completely shoving aside everything that isn't in center focus to the wayside, but rather, it's his current contradictory opinion.
he likes it so much that he doesn't want anyone to hear it... ]
That sums it up pretty well, I guess?
[ hm. except... not quite? idly, he runs a hand through his hair, tilting his head to the side, and he slouches slightly again.
it was more like... the words, wasn't it? the words were...
oh. ]
he likes it so much that he doesn't want anyone to hear it... ]
That sums it up pretty well, I guess?
[ hm. except... not quite? idly, he runs a hand through his hair, tilting his head to the side, and he slouches slightly again.
it was more like... the words, wasn't it? the words were...
oh. ]
[ tsukasa's crying, understandably, and that makes leo want to cry even less. not because it doesn't hurt, because god, of course it hurts, of course seeing anyone under his flag distressed, hurt, even worse when that person is tsukasa, who he likes and loves and loves—
—but rather it makes him want to cry less because the course of action doesn't seem entirely odd to him, doesn't seem unlikely, doesn't seem so outlandish, that it's asking for too much. if that's what the outcome ended up being, if that's what's necessary that's, simply, what he would do.
he'd already lived too long in the consequences of letting things go too easily; he already drowned in what-ifs and i-shouldn't-haves and he doesn't want to do that again.
maybe it wouldn't work out. maybe the dream was a little too out of touch with reality, but it isn't as if leo wouldn't try. so instead of allowing tsukasa's rejection to affect him, he squeezes their interlocked hands, and then he moves. a hand goes up to wipe away any tears that might fall, but really, he just wants to look at tsukasa's face, bring him a little closer. ]
Who says it's not?
[ it's straight to the point—leo's own rejection of whatever plans tsukasa had for a worst-case scenario, whatever reality he'd drawn up.
despite the exasperation was voiced in his direction, or complaints that made themselves known with no degree of subtlety (it's not like leo is subtle on his own, either—they both are far too honest), leo's aware that his own well-being was always something on suou's mind. here, well—that's no exception. ]
"I can't"? Like I said, I'm the King. Telling me what I can or can't do is definitely out of your league.
[ again, that blunt honesty. he doesn't mean it cruelly, but. but he means to show that he's not backing out of this, that tsukasa can just save his breath. ]
Whatever you wanna do to make what you're dealt better, Suo, that's up to you—but if it's me holding you back, forget about that! [ .... ] I've had lots of people waiting for me already. What goes around comes around, and...
[ no more knights waiting for their king;
just a king waiting for a knight, his knight, if he had to. ]
Well, this's still all if, of course... I'm just saying, maybe it's just my time now.
[ and it'd be worth it, just for the possibility that they could meet again like this. ]
—but rather it makes him want to cry less because the course of action doesn't seem entirely odd to him, doesn't seem unlikely, doesn't seem so outlandish, that it's asking for too much. if that's what the outcome ended up being, if that's what's necessary that's, simply, what he would do.
he'd already lived too long in the consequences of letting things go too easily; he already drowned in what-ifs and i-shouldn't-haves and he doesn't want to do that again.
maybe it wouldn't work out. maybe the dream was a little too out of touch with reality, but it isn't as if leo wouldn't try. so instead of allowing tsukasa's rejection to affect him, he squeezes their interlocked hands, and then he moves. a hand goes up to wipe away any tears that might fall, but really, he just wants to look at tsukasa's face, bring him a little closer. ]
Who says it's not?
[ it's straight to the point—leo's own rejection of whatever plans tsukasa had for a worst-case scenario, whatever reality he'd drawn up.
despite the exasperation was voiced in his direction, or complaints that made themselves known with no degree of subtlety (it's not like leo is subtle on his own, either—they both are far too honest), leo's aware that his own well-being was always something on suou's mind. here, well—that's no exception. ]
"I can't"? Like I said, I'm the King. Telling me what I can or can't do is definitely out of your league.
[ again, that blunt honesty. he doesn't mean it cruelly, but. but he means to show that he's not backing out of this, that tsukasa can just save his breath. ]
Whatever you wanna do to make what you're dealt better, Suo, that's up to you—but if it's me holding you back, forget about that! [ .... ] I've had lots of people waiting for me already. What goes around comes around, and...
[ no more knights waiting for their king;
just a king waiting for a knight, his knight, if he had to. ]
Well, this's still all if, of course... I'm just saying, maybe it's just my time now.
[ and it'd be worth it, just for the possibility that they could meet again like this. ]
[you know, sometimes there’s just a time for romance
and eventual lewd apparently
But for now – romance. Romance and grand gestures of affection, much like the bouquet of roses that Tsukasa is bringing through the door with him, neatly tucked under his arm. A pleased and eager hum to be home, a hand fixing his hair as he gently closes the door behind him.]
Leader?
[It takes a little bit of investigating, past the initial living room, not in the kitchen, until he eventually finds Leo in the room that had been set aside as a study, working as feverishly as ever. Well. Probably. Tsukasa really still has no idea what Leo actually gets up to when left with his own devices but either way it seems like he’s busy?
With a conscious shift, Tsukasa moves to make his steps silent, sneaking up behind his boyfriend and leaning down. And because he honestly can’t really help himself—]
Boo!
But for now – romance. Romance and grand gestures of affection, much like the bouquet of roses that Tsukasa is bringing through the door with him, neatly tucked under his arm. A pleased and eager hum to be home, a hand fixing his hair as he gently closes the door behind him.]
Leader?
[It takes a little bit of investigating, past the initial living room, not in the kitchen, until he eventually finds Leo in the room that had been set aside as a study, working as feverishly as ever. Well. Probably. Tsukasa really still has no idea what Leo actually gets up to when left with his own devices but either way it seems like he’s busy?
With a conscious shift, Tsukasa moves to make his steps silent, sneaking up behind his boyfriend and leaning down. And because he honestly can’t really help himself—]
Boo!
[ the answer, truly, is fanfiction.
i can't believe that's a sentence i wrote and this is a tag im writing
but no, truly, it is fanfiction. see, leo had a tendency to settle into a daze when it came to whatever he was writing; here, it hadn't started as such, but there's the never-kicked habit of a song speaking through him through work that he should've been doing. he shoved the latter for the former and then, in drawing inspiration for that distracting song, he found tsukasa.
rather, images of tsukasa. all of them so quick but vibrant, and the sheer variety of them all leads him to jot them down as they come, remembering each and every single strand of inspiration and emotion that came bundled with every scenario. it's work turned to a musical score turned to dirty fanfiction. that's a very apt summary of what leo's working on on their desk, really.
tsukasa walking in on this isn't in the manuscript.
and, honestly, it does take a while for the boo to settle.
when it does, he straightens very suddenly, his pen creating a sudden, harsh line at the end of a sentence containing the words (when tsukasa kisses a certain spot: a jolt, a spark). ]
Woah—!
[ he gasps that out, and then cranes his head back slightly to see this friggin' intruder.
this is when the shame settles at having been caught writing some kind of lewd phrases of someone you're dating, right
nope. he's just moving a hand up to touch tsukasa's cheek softly. ]
—When'd you... You're getting way too sneaky, huh? [ wait, can't forget this one: ] Welcome home!
but no, truly, it is fanfiction. see, leo had a tendency to settle into a daze when it came to whatever he was writing; here, it hadn't started as such, but there's the never-kicked habit of a song speaking through him through work that he should've been doing. he shoved the latter for the former and then, in drawing inspiration for that distracting song, he found tsukasa.
rather, images of tsukasa. all of them so quick but vibrant, and the sheer variety of them all leads him to jot them down as they come, remembering each and every single strand of inspiration and emotion that came bundled with every scenario. it's work turned to a musical score turned to dirty fanfiction. that's a very apt summary of what leo's working on on their desk, really.
tsukasa walking in on this isn't in the manuscript.
and, honestly, it does take a while for the boo to settle.
when it does, he straightens very suddenly, his pen creating a sudden, harsh line at the end of a sentence containing the words (when tsukasa kisses a certain spot: a jolt, a spark). ]
Woah—!
[ he gasps that out, and then cranes his head back slightly to see this friggin' intruder.
this is when the shame settles at having been caught writing some kind of lewd phrases of someone you're dating, right
nope. he's just moving a hand up to touch tsukasa's cheek softly. ]
—When'd you... You're getting way too sneaky, huh? [ wait, can't forget this one: ] Welcome home!
[why is leo so weird
Honestly not the first time that Tsukasa's had the thought probably - living with Leo has certainly been an adventure? - but really the study is supposed to be for studying... for hard work... for being productive and getting things done, but that doesn't seem to be what's going on here?
Ah, but first.]
Mm, I'm glad to be home. [A pleased smile coupled with the followed impulse of leaning forward and leaving a brief kiss right at the corner of Leo's lips.] You're still hard at work?
[is what he hopes
until he actually takes a better glance over at what Leo's poring over. it starts as work apparently and Tsukasa can't help but smile a bit when it turns into a musical score but then it
turns to words
and from there he's skimming, blinking, confused as he finds his name on the page and
. . . . ]
... What is this?
[thIS ISN'T WORK]
Honestly not the first time that Tsukasa's had the thought probably - living with Leo has certainly been an adventure? - but really the study is supposed to be for studying... for hard work... for being productive and getting things done, but that doesn't seem to be what's going on here?
Ah, but first.]
Mm, I'm glad to be home. [A pleased smile coupled with the followed impulse of leaning forward and leaving a brief kiss right at the corner of Leo's lips.] You're still hard at work?
[is what he hopes
until he actually takes a better glance over at what Leo's poring over. it starts as work apparently and Tsukasa can't help but smile a bit when it turns into a musical score but then it
turns to words
and from there he's skimming, blinking, confused as he finds his name on the page and
. . . . ]
... What is this?
[thIS ISN'T WORK]
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[ okay. this is when the shame settles, right?
nope. mostly they've been together too long and done too much for leo to be at the point that he really feels shame... and given he's barely the type to feel it regardless, can anyone really be surprised? in his defence, maybe he would've, if this was fresh and new and he wasn't leo and he wasn't tsukasa.
at least he mulls over the sheets a bit, skimming his own words, as if he's not the one who wrote them. ]
... Oh, [ ..... there's no proper explanation for this, is there?
so instead leo says, pointing to a specific line: ] This part? That was that one time, yeah? We came back from that meet-up a couple of months ago, I think? Huh, wait, that's sure vague, huh...? Was it a month ago? Or maybe it was...
[ his memory's not the best, but even he remembers the specific actions burned as they are into his mind. fortunately his attention span is just as poor as his general ability to Recall Things, because he's shifting his chair a bit to get a better look at tsukasa and—
— pausing over the roses, with a grin. ]
Hey, are those for me?
[ ignoring that he didn't even answer the actual question asked
it's too fucking late for romance ]
nope. mostly they've been together too long and done too much for leo to be at the point that he really feels shame... and given he's barely the type to feel it regardless, can anyone really be surprised? in his defence, maybe he would've, if this was fresh and new and he wasn't leo and he wasn't tsukasa.
at least he mulls over the sheets a bit, skimming his own words, as if he's not the one who wrote them. ]
... Oh, [ ..... there's no proper explanation for this, is there?
so instead leo says, pointing to a specific line: ] This part? That was that one time, yeah? We came back from that meet-up a couple of months ago, I think? Huh, wait, that's sure vague, huh...? Was it a month ago? Or maybe it was...
[ his memory's not the best, but even he remembers the specific actions burned as they are into his mind. fortunately his attention span is just as poor as his general ability to Recall Things, because he's shifting his chair a bit to get a better look at tsukasa and—
— pausing over the roses, with a grin. ]
Hey, are those for me?
[ ignoring that he didn't even answer the actual question asked
it's too fucking late for romance ]
[yeah that wasn't even a slight answer
Tsukasa's actually the one flushing a little bit when Leo points out a specific line and given the context - well, he remembers because he's not a horrible boyfriend who lets the days blend together, okay. It makes him glance away for a second because one of them has to possess some shame alright
well, it's not like he wasn't hoping for similar to happen tonight but
anyway
that sure is an opening to talk about something else and so Tsukasa does offer the roses out, because he's a romantic fool. sort of. he's actually probably just more traditional than anything and giving Leo roses seemed like a good idea even though tsukasa would probably be the one taking care of them anyway
so here he goes, presenting a bouquet of a dozen roses]
No, they're for Onee-sama? [really....... a bit of a laugh and he'll lean closer, closing the distance between himself and Leo considerably] Mm, I suppose I just felt like giving you a few surprises today would be fun.
But you ended up surprising me instead?
Tsukasa's actually the one flushing a little bit when Leo points out a specific line and given the context - well, he remembers because he's not a horrible boyfriend who lets the days blend together, okay. It makes him glance away for a second because one of them has to possess some shame alright
well, it's not like he wasn't hoping for similar to happen tonight but
anyway
that sure is an opening to talk about something else and so Tsukasa does offer the roses out, because he's a romantic fool. sort of. he's actually probably just more traditional than anything and giving Leo roses seemed like a good idea even though tsukasa would probably be the one taking care of them anyway
so here he goes, presenting a bouquet of a dozen roses]
No, they're for Onee-sama? [really....... a bit of a laugh and he'll lean closer, closing the distance between himself and Leo considerably] Mm, I suppose I just felt like giving you a few surprises today would be fun.
But you ended up surprising me instead?
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