nightchild: (i'm too picky not to notice this)

[personal profile] nightchild 2022-04-18 06:28 am (UTC)(link)
[if he started skimming right then and there then he would have seen itsuki panic so bad even though they're both naked because for some reason reading letters is more embarrassing than the act of banging,]

Yasu-kun taught me how -- back in the prism.

[he turns around so he can take Buzen by the chin and kiss him softly,]

...I asked him because I want to take care of you too. ...Can I?

[or is that something reserved for swords and masters? though even if it is... it'll just make itsuki want to take care of buzen even more,]
nightchild: (. . . .)

[personal profile] nightchild 2022-04-18 06:35 am (UTC)(link)
[they are so naked right now.






AND YET]


...Wiku? [WIKU? WITHOUT THE -CHAN?] She held you?
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[personal profile] nightchild 2022-04-18 06:50 am (UTC)(link)
[the way Itsuki would be stubborn enough not to move but BUZEN'S PICKING HIM UP SO HE CAN'T JUST STAY THERE,

they're under the covers now... he cuddles close even though he's being so irrationally jealous now,]


Did she just hold you or did she take care of you?
nightchild: (naw)

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[personal profile] nightchild 2022-04-18 07:02 am (UTC)(link)
[





he's.................................. blushing...........]
nightchild: (mmmmm)

[personal profile] nightchild 2022-04-18 07:07 am (UTC)(link)
[wow.......... itsuki's never seen buzen blush before.......................... except like 5 minutes ago during their bang............. must be nice.............]





I see.

[the way buzen is so sweetly honest and itsuki decides to respond with jealousy? THEY JUST MADE LOVE AND HIS VOICE iS SO FLAT????? HE DOESN'T SAY ANYTHING ELSE?? HE JUST TURNS AROUND???]
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[personal profile] nightchild 2022-04-18 07:34 am (UTC)(link)
[itsuki's upset but not only for jealous yan reasons, but because he knows he's being jealous and yan and as always, he wishes he wasn't this way. very funny because he'll always be like this no matter what,

the idea that buzen might like someone more than him doesn't even really cross his mind -- not when buzen's made it clear so many times that he loves him. it makes him feel guilty too, that buzen's trying so hard to make up for something he's not responsible for.

that buzen has to say sorry for someone else's actions... it's frustrating.

itsuki turns around so he can see his face and slide an arm around Buzen's waist,]


I'm not mad at you.

[he trails the fingers of his other hand across Buzen's face, sliding a finger down the bridge of his nose, taking him in]

...I want people to stop kissing you. Even if they don't love you as much as I do, even if it doesn't mean the same thing to them. [...] Especially if it doesn't mean the same thing to them.

I'm fine with Mete-chan -- and Shuu-kun and Yasu-kun. But anyone else... I'd like it if you didn't have to apologize for something they did.

[which he wouldn't have to do if itsuki wasn't so jealous but HERE WE ARE I GUESS]
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[personal profile] nightchild 2022-04-18 08:00 am (UTC)(link)
[buzen kisses him sweetly, with what feels like romance, and for a moment itsuki can only think of how much he wants him. he wants to hold him and kiss him and know that buzen will only ever belong to him. buzen says 'i'm yours' and itsuki thinks for one wild, dark moment that he wishes he could show the whole world that.

he can feel the power in his chest, the one kazuha gave him. 'a power to grant happiness to others'. and yet. what would it be like if he could just put the entire world to sleep? if he could make them live somewhere where they could never reach buzen and him?

(...they could all still be happy, wouldn't they? they just wouldn't know.

...)

no. he doesn't want that. he'll never be the only person buzen loves, and separating him from everyone he does care for isn't the answer.

that wouldn't be loving buzen. that would be breaking him.

his lips twitch, and he puts a hand over his face -- as if hoping that the ugliness in his thoughts aren't reflected in his expression. buzen accepts everything about him -- he doesn't want that to change. (and a part of him too, is afraid that he'll accept this.)]


...Can I kiss you?

[he means

the sword

help]
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[personal profile] nightchild 2022-04-18 08:17 am (UTC)(link)
[imagine if buzen said no because he just wants to bang and itsuki started crying bc he'd think buzen was saying no to him, imagine that happened

his palm feels tingly from where buzen kissed it... itsuki thinks yet again about the claim buzen has on his heart. he should probably move to sit up to accept the sword, but he doesn't. instead he holds his hands out for the sword, still lying on the futon]


Can you help me carry it? ...I don't want to drop you.
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[personal profile] nightchild 2022-04-18 09:01 am (UTC)(link)
[ITSUKI COCKBLOCKED HIMSELF WITH HIS OWN JEALOUSY

anyway he'll carefully accept the sword, putting one hand on the hilt and the other on the blade, careful. imagine if he did cut himself and a knifeplay kink awoke in him

it helps that buzen's holding on too, the sword doesn't feel as heavy as he expected. maybe a little heavier, considering that he's holding it up -- fighting against gravity.

...it's so close. just a few inches lower, and it'd be hovering over his neck... he feels his pulse kick up with adrenaline, but he's not afraid. how can he be, when buzen's here? he moves his hand down the hilt a little so he can touch buzen's hand, as if the warmth will remind him that he's not alone.]


...I know you've been held before. But you're the first one I've ever held.

[itsuki took buzen's first kiss, his first moment of intimacy. (and he has the gall to get jealous) shouldn't buzen take more of itsuki's firsts too? he gently tugs the blade down until it's hovering just over his lips, and kisses it softly.]

The only one too.

[though technically he could probably carry another sword... if out of necessity, but never by choice. he shifts his head a little, leans up to kiss the blade again,]

You said that you're mine. [this time he moves the blade to the side, so he can kiss the next part,] That means I'm yours too.

[down, down, down, so he can kiss every part of the blade, his eyes fixed on buzen's]

I'm not a warrior. I don't need to be one. [he doesn't want to be anyone else, because buzen's told him he loves him] I love you, Buzen Gou. Every form of you.
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[personal profile] nightchild 2022-04-19 04:18 am (UTC)(link)
[ah. he's blushing....

it's a heady combination -- the wash of pink across buzen's face, the way he's taking his time when he's normally so quick, the warmth of his lips. the fact that just earlier itsuki had thought it would never be enough, that he'd only ever take from buzen and keep taking out of desperate need, and that fact would somehow repel him. but he's not taking this time, he's just lucky enough to accept.

he's the wind, and itsuki's the ripple. but in this moment? buzen feels like the sun, and itsuki's heart is full,]


...Yeah.

[he slides his hand slowly up buzen's back, mapping out the skin, marveling at the warmth, thinking of how beautiful a blade can be -- both steel and flesh. how blessed he is that buzen chose to love him, chose him to remember him, entrusted that memory onto him. a soft murmur against his lips]

This is the only place I want to be. Next to you.

[where he can look at him and see every side of him, and treasure each expression and word,]
nightchild: (is this the face of a liar)

[personal profile] nightchild 2022-04-19 06:32 am (UTC)(link)
[He hums in response, moving his hands up, up, up, until his fingers card through Buzen's hair, marveling in every sensation he's lucky enough to feel.]

I will. ...For as long as we can.

[how wonderful would it be if that could be forever? is it really so impossible a dream?

that's a question itsuki can take his time to answer, he thinks. for now... he draws Buzen back down towards him, pressing kisses on his cheeks, as if that single touch can bring back his very cutely embarrassed expression,]


I think I understand now -- why you like it when I blush.
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[personal profile] nightchild 2022-04-19 06:59 am (UTC)(link)
[shaking that buzen likes it bc he thinks it's funny and itsuki likes it bc he thinks it's so cute/makes him horny for buzen, this slut is really out here.]

There isn't really just one reason.

[itsuki is a complex bottom.......]

Sometimes, it's because I don't know how to react, or know what to do when you show me so much kindness. So it's like I'm surprised, but in a good way. [(tsuru voice) a good surprise] Other times... I get embarrassed, because I get to receive so much affection from you when I never thought I ever would.

And finally... [his voice gets a little deeper her, as he slips his hand under buzen's chin to gently guide him back to him,] I blush whenever I think about wanting you, or when you make it clear you want me.

[buzen whenever itsuki blushes: banging?]

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