( oh... she's right. he'd been so embarrassing then—just thinking about it makes him want to bury himself in the snow. in seven thousand years when they finally defrost him no one will know of his stupid stuttering and awkward small talk and much-too-eager reactions...
unfortunately the city is never that kind and he instead resists the urge to groan. he just closes his eyes instead and sighs, a sort of. embarrassed smile pulling at his lips. )
I was so grateful for that hot chocolate, too... You were like an angel, Anya, come to save me from freezing to death...
( it wasn't that drastic. he would not have frozen to death then just like he won't now. but when you're cold, every second feels like that. thankfully he doesn't feel cold at all now, which is probably just a mental effect from holding her hand but it sure is working. )
I think I'd been shoveling for a while at that point—I almost couldn't feel my hands. Um, it's not like people just ignored me or anything— or that they just, you know, asked me to help out without asking if there was anything they could get for me... It probably just didn't cross their mind.
( ...and tsukasa is a doormat who can't say no to people older than him. it's still kind of a problem. well, except goro. he can say no to goro. )
Angel...? [she repeats the word, confused but she hums thoughtfully in response to that] If you are still cold, tell Anya...
[she doesn't know the healing property of holding hands!! but she knows she doesn't want tsukasa to be cold. so she'll step a little closer to him, like that'll help?? she's the type to cling onto her friends so the physical proximity doesn't really register as anything too close...
should she offer to give him her jacket?? she's thinking about that in the back of her mind, because anya would be a great boyfriend as well as a great girlfriend,]
Cтойкий! You are always working very hard... Then and now too, yes? So please remember to rest... Working too hard can make someone sick, and I would worry very much for you.
( he's gotten used to physical proximity thanks to hinata. except anya is still... someone he likes, very much so, so he pays it a little more mind than he ought to. no amount of exposure therapy is going to help his heart from doing that sad little flutter he gets when she's close by or worried about him— )
Th... Thank you, but that goes double for you. ( she's fussy? he is also fussy. ) You're working so much harder than me— it's not like I have any big, important dreams like you do.
( being an idol, making people smile, working so hard for that chance...
no, he's happy going to college and becoming a veterinarian for large animals. it's a small, meager dream compared to something like anya's. )
You don't have to worry about me, ( he finishes softly, hiding his face a little more in his scarf. ) But, um... It makes me happy that you do, too... But I still won't try to worry you too much, so you shouldn't worry about me at all—
[she tilts her head - first to the left, then to the right as though to make sure that the words that filtered through her ears are the correct ones. the little noise that escapes her is a little confused, slightly frustrated.... tsukasa is so sweet but she needs to be quick to amend something here - ]
Нет! No! [she shakes her head then, her short hair puffing up around her with the fussy little intensity of it] No no no.... Of course I worry for you. And of course your dream is big and important, too.
It does not need to be the same dream... or more or less effort. And важный. We both work hard, and Tsukasa's dream is important because it is Tsukasa's. And I will always care for you, because you are important to me. Worry is caring, too.
Do not say different.
[or else she'll pout at him forever, and what's that gonna be like, huh!!]
( but she's cute when she pouts... it still makes him feel bad, a little, to have upset her, and he hesitates before giving her hand a small squeeze and sighing. there's very few things he'd say no to, from her. this isn't one of them.
and... it feels nice to hear, when he really thinks her dream--her passion, her ambition, her stage--is so much brighter than his. if someone who has a vision like that thinks his is important too, then-- maybe it is. )
...Okay, I give. ( she wins!! so no pouting please-- ) You'll come visit me e~very day when I'm the stables' resident vet then, won't you?
[hehe.... win for anya. when he agrees, the pout so easily melts away and she smiles again, a little pleased aura emanating from her]
Лучше. Better answer.
But Anya will always visit whenever Tsukasa wants. Even if things are busy... I will try to make time.
[there are things that come with being an idol, and chasing after her dream... but yato won't really let her overwork herself either, she's sure. and what's the point of pursuing what she wants if she can't be that shining star for the people that matter the most]
Pядом... I do not want to be very far from you either, you know?
( whenever he wants... but that'd be too selfish, right? to take up all her time like that-- she has other friends who deserve her time, too. she has family. )
Well, you'll always know where to find me, and I'll always welcome you home. Ehehe... おかえり, アニャちゃん. Just like that.
( he can be a good wife in addition to being a good husband, )
But putting that aside, um... How has your work been going?
[ !!! it's funny how such a simple thing makes her heart flutter, but it does.... to have someone who will welcome her home.... her mother is present in her life, of course, but she works long hours too. the time she gets with her is precious, but there are still enough days that anya returns to an empty, dark house that she can't help but feel a little lonely.
even if it's a little out of order, she can't help but respond softly]
ただいま, 司....
[is she going to add an honorific to his name?
no, apparently not! she giggles faintly to herself even as she gives his hand a gentle squeeze. the café isn't much farther from here, she thinks...]
Mm, work is fun! Hard, too... but - вознаграждающий? Ah, it feels like it is little wins everyday. I think another show will happen soon? So.... тренировка! Practice very much, and very often.
( it's funny how such a simple thing makes his heart flutter... no honorific... she doesn't add one when they speak english anyway so this is to be expected but still..!! )
Can I help? I mean— ( he was probably too eager, there. ) I just... had a lot of fun last time. You probably don't need outside help though...
I'll never miss one of your shows ever in my entire life, Anya.
( her little number one fan............. number two because yato exists actually. he's jealous of him. he's so jealous. he gets first dibs on all of the anya merch... )
When we performed... Well, when you performed that night ( he would never call his back-up dancing "performing" by any means ) you were so radiant... I couldn't help but be inspired by you. I wanted to do better—I wanted to dance better—I wanted to become someone worthy of standing on the same stage as you.
( ... )
I wrote a fan letter for you, actually. Isn't that a little weird to do for someone you worked with...? That's what I thought, so I never ended up mailing it. ( plus it was incredibly embarrassing. it's embarrassing to say these things too, so he keeps his gaze on the road ahead of them. ) Um, but I bought a penlight after the show. For memory's sake. And so I could use it the next time I attended a concert of your's...
[but it's such a sweet, cute sentiment, isn't it? he calls it weird, but the laugh that escapes her is a little disbelieving, mostly just incredibly adoring. tsukasa is so supportive....]
I would like it if you did... I would like it if you could always come to see performances. Mm... How do I say... Bозбуждающий...? It makes me feel lighter, to know you want to come see me. That you care for Anya so much.
Maybe that is a type of doki doki too... [a more platonic one that what she feels otherwise, but it is sincere nonetheless. isn't it still important to let the people who you love know how much they mean to you?]
Mm, but... you are already достаточный. You are already worthy to be with me, Tsukasa. Always. So know that too, please.
( he really is surrounded by such kind people... such flatterers... tsukasa ducks his head a little, his ears matching his cheeks matching his hair. )
Thank you... Um, cпасибо. ( another thing he wants to be better at: speaking russian. that's for her, too. ) I'll try to keep it in mind. Really, I will.
( plenty of people have said it to him. still say it to him. and he still doesn't feel like he quite deserves it yet, but... )
I didn't mean to bring the mood down any— I'm looking forward to your show! And I'll do everything I can to help out, volunteer or otherwise. Maybe I could help pass out pamphlets? Or take tickets... No, there's actual staff for that part, right? Hm...
Mm, I do not think the mood is down... Напоминание! I only want to remind Tsukasa that he is very impressive, too.
[anya loves her friends so much and will spend every second hyping them up if she could!! but she listens to his suggestions and hums thoughtfully. really he can do any of that if he wanted, she thinks. she would just ask yato to arrange it, and then yato would make it happen but - ]
Танцевать? Would you like to dance with Anya again? A routine to learn would be fun.
Ah - but I do not want to make the person you like jealous...
[anya is playful, sure, but she doesn't want to get in the way or anything!!]
Oh, I... ( there wasn't any way he could have told her back then he liked her, and it'd gotten harder to do that, too. "waiting on the right moment"...
he's still waiting. he keeps telling himself that and he keeps putting it off, longer and longer.
tsukasa shakes his head and exhales, breath coming out in a long white train. ) ...I don't think she'd be jealous so, um, it should be fine.
( he really should just tell her. )
Are you sure you want me to dance with you though, Anya...? I haven't improved that much since then... You should ask someone with more experience. And stage presence.
[huh! that's nice to know. the person tsukasa must like has to be very open-hearted and generous huh.....]
Определенный... If you are sure... Maybe you can bring her, too?
[though the question in return manages to make her look confused? experience and stage presence? she can think of people who might fulfill that, sure, like coworkers or people from the studio but....]
Anya is also sure. Только ты. You are one I want to dance with. Getting better with practice is true for all people - me too.
( "you are the one i want to dance with." how can nine little words make him feel like this? he clears his throat and nods, glancing at her a. little. just a tiny peek. )
...Then this Tsukasa Suzakura will humbly accept your invitation. ( he's honored... it'll be nice to dance with her again anyway--he'd been such a bad boy asking for partner dancing back then... damn... ) And, uh... She might be too busy to come see the show, but it's alright.
( she will be too busy being in the show,
there's some nice little shops coming up though... a cafe among them. tsukasa nods towards them, more than happy for the distraction-- )
[anya can't help but look a little confused, curious as to how tsukasa's crush could be busy when she hasn't even said the date or time of the show... but maybe there's just a lot on this generous person's plate!
she's about to ask why they still haven't gotten a chance to meet - she wants to meet all of tsukasa's important people, you know? - when he mentions the shop. easily distracted as she is, she glances over and chirps happily]
Ah - да! Kiyomitsu said that this shop was very good.... Time for hot chocolate, yes?
( he is so glad she's easily distracted. that's bad to be but he is!! )
I don't have a sweet tooth...! ( he... he's doing really badly at beating the allegations though, because: ) But... A-ahem, it isn't hot chocolate with— without marshmallows, so of course we'll have some.
( y...yes. yes. )
I've made different flavored ones with Leonii before... I wonder if they're just regular marshmallows here, or if they're specialty ones? I'd like something minty ♪
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unfortunately the city is never that kind and he instead resists the urge to groan. he just closes his eyes instead and sighs, a sort of. embarrassed smile pulling at his lips. )
I was so grateful for that hot chocolate, too... You were like an angel, Anya, come to save me from freezing to death...
( it wasn't that drastic. he would not have frozen to death then just like he won't now. but when you're cold, every second feels like that. thankfully he doesn't feel cold at all now, which is probably just a mental effect from holding her hand but it sure is working. )
I think I'd been shoveling for a while at that point—I almost couldn't feel my hands. Um, it's not like people just ignored me or anything— or that they just, you know, asked me to help out without asking if there was anything they could get for me... It probably just didn't cross their mind.
( ...and tsukasa is a doormat who can't say no to people older than him. it's still kind of a problem. well, except goro. he can say no to goro. )
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[she doesn't know the healing property of holding hands!! but she knows she doesn't want tsukasa to be cold. so she'll step a little closer to him, like that'll help?? she's the type to cling onto her friends so the physical proximity doesn't really register as anything too close...
should she offer to give him her jacket?? she's thinking about that in the back of her mind, because anya would be a great boyfriend as well as a great girlfriend,]
Cтойкий! You are always working very hard... Then and now too, yes? So please remember to rest... Working too hard can make someone sick, and I would worry very much for you.
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Th... Thank you, but that goes double for you. ( she's fussy? he is also fussy. ) You're working so much harder than me— it's not like I have any big, important dreams like you do.
( being an idol, making people smile, working so hard for that chance...
no, he's happy going to college and becoming a veterinarian for large animals. it's a small, meager dream compared to something like anya's. )
You don't have to worry about me, ( he finishes softly, hiding his face a little more in his scarf. ) But, um... It makes me happy that you do, too... But I still won't try to worry you too much, so you shouldn't worry about me at all—
( wheeze )
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[she tilts her head - first to the left, then to the right as though to make sure that the words that filtered through her ears are the correct ones. the little noise that escapes her is a little confused, slightly frustrated.... tsukasa is so sweet but she needs to be quick to amend something here - ]
Нет! No! [she shakes her head then, her short hair puffing up around her with the fussy little intensity of it] No no no.... Of course I worry for you. And of course your dream is big and important, too.
It does not need to be the same dream... or more or less effort. And важный. We both work hard, and Tsukasa's dream is important because it is Tsukasa's. And I will always care for you, because you are important to me. Worry is caring, too.
Do not say different.
[or else she'll pout at him forever, and what's that gonna be like, huh!!]
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and... it feels nice to hear, when he really thinks her dream--her passion, her ambition, her stage--is so much brighter than his. if someone who has a vision like that thinks his is important too, then-- maybe it is. )
...Okay, I give. ( she wins!! so no pouting please-- ) You'll come visit me e~very day when I'm the stables' resident vet then, won't you?
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Лучше. Better answer.
But Anya will always visit whenever Tsukasa wants. Even if things are busy... I will try to make time.
[there are things that come with being an idol, and chasing after her dream... but yato won't really let her overwork herself either, she's sure. and what's the point of pursuing what she wants if she can't be that shining star for the people that matter the most]
Pядом... I do not want to be very far from you either, you know?
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Well, you'll always know where to find me, and I'll always welcome you home. Ehehe... おかえり, アニャちゃん. Just like that.
( he can be a good wife in addition to being a good husband, )
But putting that aside, um... How has your work been going?
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even if it's a little out of order, she can't help but respond softly]
ただいま, 司....
[is she going to add an honorific to his name?
no, apparently not! she giggles faintly to herself even as she gives his hand a gentle squeeze. the café isn't much farther from here, she thinks...]
Mm, work is fun! Hard, too... but - вознаграждающий? Ah, it feels like it is little wins everyday. I think another show will happen soon? So.... тренировка! Practice very much, and very often.
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Can I help? I mean— ( he was probably too eager, there. ) I just... had a lot of fun last time. You probably don't need outside help though...
( in his eyes anya is already a star... )
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[the thought already makes her smile a little wider, her eyes shine just a little brighter.]
If you would like to, then it would be fun! Even if no help needed, maybe.... волонтер? Um, volunteer?
I would still be happy if you could come to show at all...
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( her little number one fan............. number two because yato exists actually. he's jealous of him. he's so jealous. he gets first dibs on all of the anya merch... )
When we performed... Well, when you performed that night ( he would never call his back-up dancing "performing" by any means ) you were so radiant... I couldn't help but be inspired by you. I wanted to do better—I wanted to dance better—I wanted to become someone worthy of standing on the same stage as you.
( ... )
I wrote a fan letter for you, actually. Isn't that a little weird to do for someone you worked with...? That's what I thought, so I never ended up mailing it. ( plus it was incredibly embarrassing. it's embarrassing to say these things too, so he keeps his gaze on the road ahead of them. ) Um, but I bought a penlight after the show. For memory's sake. And so I could use it the next time I attended a concert of your's...
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[but it's such a sweet, cute sentiment, isn't it? he calls it weird, but the laugh that escapes her is a little disbelieving, mostly just incredibly adoring. tsukasa is so supportive....]
I would like it if you did... I would like it if you could always come to see performances. Mm... How do I say... Bозбуждающий...? It makes me feel lighter, to know you want to come see me. That you care for Anya so much.
Maybe that is a type of doki doki too... [a more platonic one that what she feels otherwise, but it is sincere nonetheless. isn't it still important to let the people who you love know how much they mean to you?]
Mm, but... you are already достаточный. You are already worthy to be with me, Tsukasa. Always. So know that too, please.
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Thank you... Um, cпасибо. ( another thing he wants to be better at: speaking russian. that's for her, too. ) I'll try to keep it in mind. Really, I will.
( plenty of people have said it to him. still say it to him. and he still doesn't feel like he quite deserves it yet, but... )
I didn't mean to bring the mood down any— I'm looking forward to your show! And I'll do everything I can to help out, volunteer or otherwise. Maybe I could help pass out pamphlets? Or take tickets... No, there's actual staff for that part, right? Hm...
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[anya loves her friends so much and will spend every second hyping them up if she could!! but she listens to his suggestions and hums thoughtfully. really he can do any of that if he wanted, she thinks. she would just ask yato to arrange it, and then yato would make it happen but - ]
Танцевать? Would you like to dance with Anya again? A routine to learn would be fun.
Ah - but I do not want to make the person you like jealous...
[anya is playful, sure, but she doesn't want to get in the way or anything!!]
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he's still waiting. he keeps telling himself that and he keeps putting it off, longer and longer.
tsukasa shakes his head and exhales, breath coming out in a long white train. ) ...I don't think she'd be jealous so, um, it should be fine.
( he really should just tell her. )
Are you sure you want me to dance with you though, Anya...? I haven't improved that much since then... You should ask someone with more experience. And stage presence.
( ... )
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Определенный... If you are sure... Maybe you can bring her, too?
[though the question in return manages to make her look confused? experience and stage presence? she can think of people who might fulfill that, sure, like coworkers or people from the studio but....]
Anya is also sure. Только ты. You are one I want to dance with. Getting better with practice is true for all people - me too.
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...Then this Tsukasa Suzakura will humbly accept your invitation. ( he's honored... it'll be nice to dance with her again anyway--he'd been such a bad boy asking for partner dancing back then... damn... ) And, uh... She might be too busy to come see the show, but it's alright.
( she will be too busy being in the show,
there's some nice little shops coming up though... a cafe among them. tsukasa nods towards them, more than happy for the distraction-- )
Is that it, Anya?
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she's about to ask why they still haven't gotten a chance to meet - she wants to meet all of tsukasa's important people, you know? - when he mentions the shop. easily distracted as she is, she glances over and chirps happily]
Ah - да! Kiyomitsu said that this shop was very good.... Time for hot chocolate, yes?
Maybe зефир.... For sweet tooth, marshmallow!
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I don't have a sweet tooth...! ( he... he's doing really badly at beating the allegations though, because: ) But... A-ahem, it isn't hot chocolate with— without marshmallows, so of course we'll have some.
( y...yes. yes. )
I've made different flavored ones with Leonii before... I wonder if they're just regular marshmallows here, or if they're specialty ones? I'd like something minty ♪