[Of all the responses that Tsukasa was expecting - that wasn't one of them. He blinks, clearly surprised, even more confused than he was a second ago. Was something off? He repeats the lines over in his head - had he sung them incorrectly, did the lyrics not match how the song was supposed to go, was the embellishment too much? Had he done something to offend his leader?
Except.
Leo looks just as confused as he does?
So it's not malicious - not enough for Tsukasa to get too distracted or riled up or hurt... well, so far anyway. It's still not the same expression that Leo wore when he was part of the audience, evaluating and unhappy with Tsukasa's performance, so... what could it be?
It's still enough to get him to furrow his brow, a little frustrated.]
If... that's what Leader wants -
[it's Leo's song, isn't it? Leo's song for him, maybe but.... it's not like he can really deny a request from his King.]
But... why?
[He's always been the type to Question him though.]
feeling very clumsy all of a sudden, like when he forgets suou's name a little too much and then he ends up with an almost-crying kid on his hands... but this is pretty different. everything is just pretty different, apparently, and his gaze goes to the notebook in his hands as a distraction.
... o-kay, how does he handle this one?
suddenly, with a wave of one hand and his everything else focused on the page in front of him: ]
Forget it, forget it! All the notes got messed up in my head, grrr, and I ended up with something pretty reckless, huh... [ er, yeah, that's one way to put it? now, he looks up at tsukasa, the majority of the excuse already up in the air, entirely determined not to seem too phased about this whole thing. ] What was I gonna... Right! Like I said, it's your song, so that's up to you. Even if it's me, letting someone else decide whether or not you sing what you crafted, or what was crafted for you, doesn't fit well at all.
[ that's a little sharp. but, well, leo's said himself that he's not always gentle, and it's true. ]
Regardless that manages to get Tsukasa to be a little bit more annoyed? It's easier to feel annoyance than insecurity (but surprise, he manages to feel both most of the time) but he'd still rather the irritation show on his face. Still, he's just going to shake his head shortly after - ]
But it is not just my song? You are still the composer... if you don't want your song to be heard then - it won't be. [Though there's a noise of irritation that escapes him - undignified, he chastises himself internally, but well it's not like anyone can see it but Leo - and he ends up siiighing and then moving to fix his hair if only to give his hands something to do now that he doesn't feel like picking up a paper or pen.] You're such a handful!
Don't call me down here to put a song together if you don't want it to be heard? Really, that's just irresponsible...!
his kneejerk response is to say that it's not his song that he doesn't want heard, because why else would he write a song? he writes them so they are heard, it's just— somehow, with the lyrics, it ended up being the opposite? except he also wants suou's song to be heard, so that's ridiculous. the creative gods are definitely punishing him with... something. something... what kind of line of thought is that even.
he presses his lips together.
that's definitely selfish— ]
Rather, isn't the handful someone that continues to remember even when I said to forget it...? It's not a fault in the song itself, so you can rest easy about that.
[ JUST CHILL, says leo tsukinaga, as he just tugs suou along and
But Tsukasa is. Listening. He's really trying to listen to the explanation, but there's a catch: the explanation doesn't actually exist. That sure is a rambling, bumbling response and there's actually no sort of rhyme or reason to it. It had been a nice moment, Tsukasa thinks, where he and Leo actually got to see to eye for a bit. they got along and their music and lyrics matched up and
well the problem is now that Leo apparently doesn't want to let that music be heard and also is dancing around telling Tsukasa his reasoning
which is why Tsukasa isn't really going to just accept that anymore]
If it's not the song itself... then why? You don't want to let anyone else hear it? Doesn't that go against our purpose as idols? [frustration mounting, snowballing into English:] It doesn't make sense!
Yeah! It doesn't, does it? ... Mm, wait, that is what you said, right? It doesn't make sense?
[ he just has to make sure, his english is kind of leaving him now that his brain is scrambled with thoughts of how this logic is even working. this is a tad nonsensical even by his standards. and yet where the normal response would be to reason this out with the person he's confusing, leo's response is to agree because--
--well, he can't disagree. of course it goes against their very purpose as idols! what kind of musician hides away a song? ]
It's like Beethoven hiding away his Fifth Symphony...! If Vivaldi wrote his Four Seasons, and then hid Summer! That's not Four Seasons, that's three! Even if you like Summer enough to want to hide it away, that definitely doesn't make sense...! Does that mean I reached another level? Is this a sign of genius? Madness? Maybe it's both!
[ well, there's some semblance of an explanation there that leo hasn't quite realized he's spilled in the midst of his rambling.
[There's a nod! Yes, that's what he said because it doesn't make sense.
What Leo says? ALSO DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE. It manages to get Tsukasa to pause - for one because that's quite the reference to make, sometimes he forget that Leo isn't a total blithering idiot until things like this actually manage to happen - and then when he actually starts to piece together the message in it.
Uh.]
Wait, you.... like it? [WHAT A SHITTY WAY TO SHOW IT]
So you want to - keep it?
[that'S WHAT HE SAID TSUKASA but - now he's realizing that Leo didn't mean it in the "keep it away from the eyes of the world before we get embarrassed and drag down the reputation of Knights" sort of way but
[ that sure is leo straightening up a tad, almost immediately, cutting himself off—as if someone poured something cold down his shirt. and the look he's tossing tsukasa is saying that he'd absolutely not expected that to come out of his mouth.
even though
he basically just said it there, in his ramblings.
but alas, too lost in his thoughts, he hadn't even realized that what he was saying could easily be compared to their own situation. ]
How'd you guess that, huh?! Were you lying about not being able to read minds?
[WHY IS HE EVEN SURPRISED ANYMORE. Except he definitely still is - and that's why Tsukasa is bringing a hand up to his forehead, feeling a headache coming on.]
No, I can't read minds, Leader. Rather, you were the one to say it yourself? So that means... I'm correct? [RIGHT? Which is already a little surprising. He's still not sure what to do with this information.] You... like the song so much that you don't want anyone to hear it?
[ and were leo someone saner, this is where the embarrassment of having basically not registered what came out of his mouth would sink in, but instead he just nods as if tsukasa didn't just basically tell him he has no idea what he's saying. rather, what's causing him to pause now isn't his own impressive ability of completely shoving aside everything that isn't in center focus to the wayside, but rather, it's his current contradictory opinion.
he likes it so much that he doesn't want anyone to hear it... ]
That sums it up pretty well, I guess?
[ hm. except... not quite? idly, he runs a hand through his hair, tilting his head to the side, and he slouches slightly again.
it was more like... the words, wasn't it? the words were...
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Except.
Leo looks just as confused as he does?
So it's not malicious - not enough for Tsukasa to get too distracted or riled up or hurt... well, so far anyway. It's still not the same expression that Leo wore when he was part of the audience, evaluating and unhappy with Tsukasa's performance, so... what could it be?
It's still enough to get him to furrow his brow, a little frustrated.]
If... that's what Leader wants -
[it's Leo's song, isn't it? Leo's song for him, maybe but.... it's not like he can really deny a request from his King.]
But... why?
[He's always been the type to Question him though.]
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feeling very clumsy all of a sudden, like when he forgets suou's name a little too much and then he ends up with an almost-crying kid on his hands... but this is pretty different. everything is just pretty different, apparently, and his gaze goes to the notebook in his hands as a distraction.
... o-kay, how does he handle this one?
suddenly, with a wave of one hand and his everything else focused on the page in front of him: ]
Forget it, forget it! All the notes got messed up in my head, grrr, and I ended up with something pretty reckless, huh... [ er, yeah, that's one way to put it? now, he looks up at tsukasa, the majority of the excuse already up in the air, entirely determined not to seem too phased about this whole thing. ] What was I gonna... Right! Like I said, it's your song, so that's up to you. Even if it's me, letting someone else decide whether or not you sing what you crafted, or what was crafted for you, doesn't fit well at all.
[ that's a little sharp. but, well, leo's said himself that he's not always gentle, and it's true. ]
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['cause yOU'RE HOT AND YOU'RE COLD....
Regardless that manages to get Tsukasa to be a little bit more annoyed? It's easier to feel annoyance than insecurity (but surprise, he manages to feel both most of the time) but he'd still rather the irritation show on his face. Still, he's just going to shake his head shortly after - ]
But it is not just my song? You are still the composer... if you don't want your song to be heard then - it won't be. [Though there's a noise of irritation that escapes him - undignified, he chastises himself internally, but well it's not like anyone can see it but Leo - and he ends up siiighing and then moving to fix his hair if only to give his hands something to do now that he doesn't feel like picking up a paper or pen.] You're such a handful!
Don't call me down here to put a song together if you don't want it to be heard? Really, that's just irresponsible...!
[you got his hopes up and everything!]
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[ dISASTER.
his kneejerk response is to say that it's not his song that he doesn't want heard, because why else would he write a song? he writes them so they are heard, it's just— somehow, with the lyrics, it ended up being the opposite? except he also wants suou's song to be heard, so that's ridiculous. the creative gods are definitely punishing him with... something. something... what kind of line of thought is that even.
he presses his lips together.
that's definitely selfish— ]
Rather, isn't the handful someone that continues to remember even when I said to forget it...? It's not a fault in the song itself, so you can rest easy about that.
[ JUST CHILL, says leo tsukinaga, as he just tugs suou along and
EXPLAINS NOTHING. ]
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[so LITERALLY ALL THE TIME.
But Tsukasa is. Listening. He's really trying to listen to the explanation, but there's a catch: the explanation doesn't actually exist. That sure is a rambling, bumbling response and there's actually no sort of rhyme or reason to it. It had been a nice moment, Tsukasa thinks, where he and Leo actually got to see to eye for a bit. they got along and their music and lyrics matched up and
well the problem is now that Leo apparently doesn't want to let that music be heard and also is dancing around telling Tsukasa his reasoning
which is why Tsukasa isn't really going to just accept that anymore]
If it's not the song itself... then why? You don't want to let anyone else hear it? Doesn't that go against our purpose as idols? [frustration mounting, snowballing into English:] It doesn't make sense!
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[ he just has to make sure, his english is kind of leaving him now that his brain is scrambled with thoughts of how this logic is even working. this is a tad nonsensical even by his standards. and yet where the normal response would be to reason this out with the person he's confusing, leo's response is to agree because--
--well, he can't disagree. of course it goes against their very purpose as idols! what kind of musician hides away a song? ]
It's like Beethoven hiding away his Fifth Symphony...! If Vivaldi wrote his Four Seasons, and then hid Summer! That's not Four Seasons, that's three! Even if you like Summer enough to want to hide it away, that definitely doesn't make sense...! Does that mean I reached another level? Is this a sign of genius? Madness? Maybe it's both!
[ well, there's some semblance of an explanation there that leo hasn't quite realized he's spilled in the midst of his rambling.
someone just evacuate tsukasa. ]
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What Leo says? ALSO DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE. It manages to get Tsukasa to pause - for one because that's quite the reference to make, sometimes he forget that Leo isn't a total blithering idiot until things like this actually manage to happen - and then when he actually starts to piece together the message in it.
Uh.]
Wait, you.... like it? [WHAT A SHITTY WAY TO SHOW IT]
So you want to - keep it?
[that'S WHAT HE SAID TSUKASA but - now he's realizing that Leo didn't mean it in the "keep it away from the eyes of the world before we get embarrassed and drag down the reputation of Knights" sort of way but
something else entirely]
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[ that sure is leo straightening up a tad, almost immediately, cutting himself off—as if someone poured something cold down his shirt. and the look he's tossing tsukasa is saying that he'd absolutely not expected that to come out of his mouth.
even though
he basically just said it there, in his ramblings.
but alas, too lost in his thoughts, he hadn't even realized that what he was saying could easily be compared to their own situation. ]
How'd you guess that, huh?! Were you lying about not being able to read minds?
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.... Are you kidding me?
[WHY IS HE EVEN SURPRISED ANYMORE. Except he definitely still is - and that's why Tsukasa is bringing a hand up to his forehead, feeling a headache coming on.]
No, I can't read minds, Leader. Rather, you were the one to say it yourself? So that means... I'm correct? [RIGHT? Which is already a little surprising. He's still not sure what to do with this information.] You... like the song so much that you don't want anyone to hear it?
[ . . . that's
actually kind of embarrassing
uh]
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he likes it so much that he doesn't want anyone to hear it... ]
That sums it up pretty well, I guess?
[ hm. except... not quite? idly, he runs a hand through his hair, tilting his head to the side, and he slouches slightly again.
it was more like... the words, wasn't it? the words were...
oh. ]