sugarcube | psl || like a ripple that chases the slightest caress of the breeze

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. . . ah. buzen will glance over at itsuki then, distracted from his brief peering around. after so long with itsuki, he thinks that he knows what that means. dreams are so important to him, because of the way that his power works, aren't they? but they're also things that he manipulates and crafts for people, to make them so happy that they might not ever want to leave -

even though in the end, they're nothing real.

he crosses the space between himself and itsuki at that, but he'll also wordlessly open his arms for him.]

... come here, Suki.

[ ...

Itsuki thinks about all the times Buzen has run to him and held him first. So confident in his speed, and always there for him. So seeing him now, with his arms outstretched... He wants to repay the favor. There's really no distance left to cross with Buzen so close, but Itsuki crosses the last of it anyway -- not so much launching as he is landing in his arms.

one hand circles Buzen's waist, the other wraps around to Buzen's shoulder, and his chin nestles in the crook of Buzen's neck, so that his mouth is right by his ear as he murmurs softly,]

...Buzen.

[finally, someone takes him up on his offer.

just kidding -

buzen knows that itsuki has leaned on him a lot, and he feels the same way now. but it's just as satisfying to have someone who's so willing to fold themselves into his arms. buzen holds itself in another embrace, so familiar - but the context is different. this isn't assurances that are based purely on buzen's confidence and certainty. this is settled in their reality.]

Itsuki.

[a soft sigh of a sound]

It's not a dream. Just try it - see if there's something you can change, or something you want to make me do. It won't work, because this is the truth and our reality.

You're home, safe with me. And I love you.

[this is the truth.

Itsuki tries it, just like he's tried so many times that first week in Chroma, but it's already a half-hearted attempt. he's already convinced -- the moment Buzen said his name.

this is reality.

if it really was a dream, then it'd already be over. but he's still here, buzen's still here. Itsuki lets out a sigh, curling tighter against him, pressing his eyes closed.]

...I love you too.

[his heart is pounding so fast, as if this is the first time. the day Buzen told him he loved him, their bodies entwined around each other.]

You're saying everything I want to hear. ...Are you really sure this isn't a dream?

[he's clearly teasing, laughing a little next to Buzen's ear,]

[buzen only holds itsuki all the closer when he curls in, leaving no space between them. he rubs his back and squeezes him gently.]

I can pinch you a little if you're really nervous.

[but he'll tilt his head just so that he can kiss beneath itsuki's ear instead. instead of pinch, it's more likely for him to bite, really....]

I'm only telling you what you want to hear because... we worked so hard to get to this point. I don't think that we get to chalk it all up to being a dream.

Even if it'll take a little getting used to... I promise I won't let anything happen to you. And I'll be with you whenever I can. You don't have any reason to be worried or nervous... just stay with me.

...Mm. I will.

[he can see how red Itsuki's ears are, as a treat... buzen's affirmed his love so many times, but itsuki will never get tired of hearing it. he's pretty sure he'll want to hear it every day, for the rest of his life.]

I'll always pick the reality that has you, no matter what. ...I'll never leave you.

[and buzen chose him, and made that reality possible. he turns his flushed face to meet Buzen's, capturing his lips with a kiss]

[ah... buzen can't truly promise the same - and he thinks itsuki knows that. it always makes him feel guilty when he has to go ahead of itsuki, and now that they're back in this Citadel where buzen could be summoned for a mission at any time, he can promise even less that he can stay in one space. but he still turns his head to catch itsuki's mouth with his, like trying to seal it as a promise anyway.]

... blushing...?

[murmured against itsuki's mouth, teasing. even now buzen doesn't really understand what embarrasses him.

but he still presses another kiss to the corner of itsuki's mouth, adoring.]

There'll always be a place for you with me. I promise.

[Itsuki does understand -- it's something Buzen made clear, after all. he has a duty, a mission. itsuki has never had either, but he can understand it. all he can do is promise himself to Buzen. let that be the surest thing they have, even if Buzen has to leave him for long periods of time.

he'd rather have this Buzen, rather than a dream where he's always by his side.]

...You're the only person who can make me blush, you know. I don't usually fluster this easily.

[he pouts a little as he says it, because he can already sense Buzen's Disbelief, even though it's true!!! really!!! look, he is -- as always -- embarrassed by the sincerity of Buzen's words, as well as the fact that he's choosing him to say them to. he loves him dearly, and he doesn't think this floaty soft feeling will ever disappear, now or in the future.]

[ . . . ?

it's true he's very confused by this information.

he tilts his head a little, like he's trying to get a good luck at itsuki's embarrassed blushy face.... more curious than anything. buzen just nuzzles in close, pressing more kisses to itsuki's cheek and jaw afterward like admitting this deserves to be rewarded or something.]

Is that my special privilege as your lover then?

[a beat]

Well, you blushed like this around me even before we were lovers.

[help]

[DON'T REWARD THIS BOTTOM BUZENNNNN]

That's -- [mmrgh] because...

[BECAUSE??? SAY IT ITSUKI, SAY IT OUT LOUD. if before he was blushing from the sincerity of buzen's everything, then now he's turning red out of embarrassment]

Well. I didn't realize it right away -- [it took a week] but I was attracted to you from the beginning, so. ...From the moment you offered to help warm me up, maybe.

[it `awakened something in him`]

That was the first thing I said to you?

[ITSUKI?]

[HIS FACE

IS REALLY RED NOW]

It wasn't... the first thing...

[it was]

[it was

help Buzen is just laughing now even though he’s also giving Itsuki a kiss like it’ll console him]

No one else agreed…? How could they let you go cold?

I mean -- Shuu-kun and Vani-chan did, but it felt more like I was helping them, you know? But it was different with you...

[he tried not to think too hard about it at the time, but he's had plenty of time since then!!!

anyway he tries pulling Buzen in for a kissy so that he doesn't say anything to reveal how much of bottom itsuki was willing to be for buzen since day one]

[help

itsuki gets his kissy because of course he does - he actually gets a lot more kissies on top of that. buzen kisses his cheeks, his nose, by the corners of his eyes… ♥♥]

… I start to understand a little better when I’m around you, you know?

What it means to be cute, I mean.

[this is legit so funny and endearing help]

[STOP THOSE WERE SUPPOSED TO BE LIP KISSIES SO BUZEN WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO TALK,

but it's too late........ he has been perceived]

I dunno about 'cute', but... I'm only like this around you, so. [SO.... others would probably call it pathetique,

but the fact that buzen's enjoying this... well, it's not a bad feeling at all, even if itsuki's dignity is being lowered neatly into a grave,]

[it’s so funny…

buzen will just cuddle closer, pulling itsuki nearer to him as he hums]

I think you’re cute. So cute it’d make Kiyo-san jealous, because there’s no one as endearing to me as you are right now.

[

the gous may one day take this from itsuki but not yet]

[i hope they do because itsuki will experience the crisis of wishing he was not being called cute to being jealous that he's no longer the cutest in buzen's eyes and he deserves to suffer that way,

he huffs, one hand curling around Buzen's nape in order to keep him in place as Itsuki ducks in for a kiss, open-mouthed and hungry. or huffy. or both! whichever it is, he uses that to deepen the kiss, catching Buzen's bottom lip in between his teeth, before running his tongue over the bite.

he'd just like it if he made Buzen breathless for a moment -- however brief. he wants to see that dazed look in his eyes -- the one Buzen always coaxes from Itsuki, with whatever he does. his other hand slides around his waist, keeping him close.

they have to go meet the gous and yet itsuki's out here wilding,]

[ITSUKI IS REALLY DOING THIS AS SOON AS HE HAS HIS OWN SPACE

the terrible thing really is that buzen doesn’t stop him. again. he wasn’t expecting the surge of affection, and so the bite and lick pull a slightly surprised noise from him - but not a displeased one. his arms circle around itsuki in return, partially for balance and partially to instinctively pull him closer.

assuming itsuki just wants more attention, buzen lets his lips part so he can lick into itsuki’s mouth. it’s not like he hates intimacy and how itsuki tastes either.]

[STOP HE CAN'T THE GOUS THEIR FAMILY MEETING,

ITSUKI THE FAMILY MEETING!!! ITSUKI!! THE MEETING!!!

anyway Itsuki can't hear the meta text, so he'll just proceed to push Buzen until his back hits the wall, kissing him all the while. he moves back, just enough so he can speak between licks, and slides his hand from Buzen's back to his front, hooking his fingers onto his belt, thumb brushing the buckle.]

...Can I? [hopeful!] I'll make it quick, promise.

[SINCE THEY HAVE

THINGS TO DO

LIKE THE FAMILY MEETING]

[ITSUKI BARELY LASTED 50 COMMENTS THIS TIME I'M LOSING IT HELPPPP THEIR FAMILY MEETINGGGGG

unfortunately buzen is

agreeable

so agreeable that he lets himself be pushed back until he makes contact with the wall - and when he pulls away, he is a little confused. gaze a little hazy from affection, even as there is a slight instinct to follow itsuki's mouth for another kiss. the question and straying hand connect into his thoughts and - he laughs a little, amused]

You want our first time here to be quick? Not that I'd complain but...

[THIS IS THE WRONG ANSWER BUZEN PLEASE

anyway he's not against a quickie he's never against a quickie but he does find it funny that the first time they get intimate at home might be a quick fuck against the wall hello]

[Itsuki already has Buzen's belt loose and is about to just stick his hand down his pants, but well...

"you want our first time here to be quick?"

"first time here to be quick?"

"first time?"

and itsuki closes

his goddamn eyes. he's so horny and he only has himself to blame, as usual. with visible effort he just -- pulls his sinful hands from Buzen's pants and drops his head on his shoulder instead, sighing.]

...No. Not our first time.

[the way buzen wouldn't even care but itsuki does, hilarious. he just reviews the events that led to this horniness and tries not to sigh louder. bottom behavior he can now identify..... not that he's actually that bothered. he just loves buzen the only way he can. but he can at least, try to restrain himself.]

Sorry. Let's pick this up again later.

[this is so funny i'm shaking itsuki finally leashed himself

buzen is similarly amused, unfortunately. though his expression does soften a little bit - he really wouldn't have minded but he had a feeling that if itsuki took two seconds to think about it then he might... so he' just lets both of his arms slip around itsuki's waist for a much warmer and safer embrace as if itsuki wasn't two seconds away from undoing his belt]

You don't have to say sorry. I like giving you what you want.

[INCLUDING QUICKIES?????? HATEFUL -

but buzen will kiss his cheek then, nuzzling against his face affectionately]

But I like getting to take my time with you too, so I can love you how I want to. [soft but also sexy?] So I'd rather wait until you're the only one I have to focus on.

[Itsuki relaxes into this much warmer and safer embrace and tilts his head, welcoming the nuzzle. the sweet affection behind both of those things is helping him, even if

the next sentence doesn't.

he swallows a little, because as often as they have banged and effusive and tender Buzen has been every time, he's never said something like this before. it,,,, has an Effect.... softe, but also... sexy.]

...I can wait. [HE CAN??? WOW] And I want that too -- the same way I want to meet the other Gous tonight.

[the same way he wants Buzen to finally reconnect with everyone he's been missing!! we can think of soft, tender things and not laser-focus on Buzen wanting to 'take his time', yeah]

[itsuki really the definition of the horny grip meme rn huh

anyway despite what he said being softe yet sexy, buzen doesn't seem to be thinking anything of it. he'll just give itsuki a much softer, gentler kiss before lightly nudging him so that buzen is no longer backed up against this wall]

We'll do that then - and you said you had something to show me?

[he's also going to fix his belt now,,

topic change go!]

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